Tag: abuse narcissistic behavior

Shove Ins ( body snatchers )

I was evaluated by a woman in 07 by phone appointment , as being a 1st Wave Indigo . She explained that while I was in the hospital , after birthing our 3rd son , ” Jessica” was brought to my hospital after a suicidal act . She shoved her soul which was in a state of addiction with me .

She had lost her precious daughter and felt she could not go on .

I became more aware with our 3rd son how distorted our world really was . I became a shell of myself , realizing I was not valued as a partner , as a wife and there was little I could do but hang in and try hard for normalcy for our sons . It wasn’t ; I simply could not ignore the facts … it only got worse .

I conquered Jessica’s implants and her addictions which were by force by a doctor , compliant by a husband and accepted by every hint of support I had .

Jessica soul retrieval allowed her spiritual reunification with her precious daughters spirit and they walked in fields of gold for eternity.

I am better informed , trust my ancestors , angels and spirit guides of benevolent intent and accept my blessings for my the trust and faith and guidance that has allowed healing and clearing of ancient bloodlines .

As such it is a brand new world , co creating with honor and respect for all that got me here as New Earth births ; I am aware of the totality of losses and I grieve .

All is well with my soul

#Acceptance

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Ending all narcissistic research is close for me

Dissecting and investigating the narcissist’s behaviors and relationship crimes may help you feel validated and to understand that it’s not you…but you don’t want to waste years of your life in that space.

No one has ever cracked the narcissistic code and went on to have a healed relationship with a narcissist.⁠

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I feel so sorrowful for folks when I see they’ve been out of their toxic relationships for 5, 10, 15 years, or more and they are still lamenting the relationship. ⁠

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This tells me they are still internalizing the false blame for the relationship ending; that they are still seeking answers; that they are addicted to researching narcissism and staying stuck in heartbreak and trauma.⁠

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Toxic relationships cause a biochemical addiction (also known as peptide addiction). It’s no different from an addiction to drugs, alcohol, or smoking…or any type of addiction.⁠

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Just as a smoker may quit smoking yet get addicted to nicotine gum, a narcissistic abuse survivor can quit the narcissist, but become addicted to researching narcissism.⁠

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Case in point – a few times each year, I put out surveys asking my followers and email subscribers what kind of material they want me to publish. Most people say they want more healing material. So, I put out more healing material and it barely receives any views or engagement. But if I put out anything with the word “narcissist” in it, it is consumed like mad.⁠

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That’s not to say you shouldn’t be in support groups designed for forward movement and healing, but that the hours-a-day binge-watching YouTube videos and reading material on narcissism will keep you stuck indefinitely if you don’t put an expiration date on it. ⁠

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Part of recovery is learning to take care of your psyche. You will eventually need to stop consuming information about narcissists and turn toward information, treatment, and programs that will help you finally heal and move forward. ⁠

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Otherwise, you could be stuck for life. ⁠

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💪 If you’d like gentle guidance on taking your power back from the narcissist, join me and other wonderful thrivers in my therapist-approved resources. ⁠

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