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Abandonment Wounds

AT THE HEART OF ALL TRAUMA

At the heart of all trauma, a terrible sense of isolation, disconnection, loneliness.

Follow your trauma to its devastating core, friend, to its heart of darkness, and you will inevitably meet the abandonment wound, the pain of all pains.

Abandoned by mother, father. Forgotten and misunderstood by the world. Cast out of heaven and separated from the Godhead. Divided from life.

Of course, it’s an illusion. You were never separate from the mountains, the forests, the diamond drops of morning dew. You were never broken, never rotten at your core, never separate from the One. You were always loved. The terrible heart of darkness was always your own exquisitely beautiful heart of light, so fragile, so powerful, so loveable, so real.

Ultimately others cannot save us. Each of us are called to confront our aloneness, dive into the heart of our trauma, and find solace and sanctuary there. Others can hold our trembling hands but they cannot travel for us.

There is no external saviour, and the lie of love is that another human being – parent, partner, guru or god – can complete you.

No. Your completeness is in your brokenness. We cannot save each other but we can weep together, walk together, share our terror, our horror, our shame, our hope and our awe.

Walking in the forest at dawn, our eyes meet.

I recognise your longing as my own.

Love is a recognition.

Author: Jeff Foster

Artwork: Welder Wings

People die how they lived : Narcissist are worse at dying- it all comes out

Fear of death seemed to motivate him and others I’ve known who are separated from Christ Consciousness

Very sad but it’s their journey

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Knowledge is key to eradicating the pathogen in Child Psychology Abuse via Narcissist – Childress

Childress – 2015: Allies: Binding Sites of Ignorance

“The third defensive meme-structure of the pathogen is to seduce and employ allies. It exploits allies to both enact the pathology (primarily the ally of the child, but also at times extended family such as step-parents or grandparents), and also to disable threats that might interfere with the pathogen’s ability to enact the pathology.

Because it seeks to remain hidden as its primary defense, the pathogen seeks “binding sites of ignorance” which don’t see the pathogen, and which it can then turn into allies to enact the pathology or disable efforts to interfere with the pathology.

The pathogen uses the ignorance of others as its primary means to remain hidden.

Our primary weapon is therefore knowledge, which we will use to expose the pathogen.” (Childress, 2015)

Craig Childress, Psy.D.
Clinical Psychologist, CA PSY 18857

Eyes :Soon I’ll be reconditioned!

Last week I had an eye exam. I get them as I can afford them and my vision demanded to get an exams.

My prescription changed very little . The scratched lens wasn’t the only reason for my blurred vision .

I have cataracts in both eyes and k my vision is blurry . Quoted the out of pocket , I feel I can make it happen soon .

I have come to realize that I experienced 3 health issues that were resolved Jan 15 and could have died from any one of the 3 .

So while I’m uninsured , have Type A Medicare , and have not been able to add a better plan and supplemental .

Just as my credit was clearing , largely to loosing my health care in a divorce that was ignorant of the truths and being targeted in said divorce to insure I’d fail .

The 2nd reason beyond a very bad experience of trying to acquire health insurance and my alliance with natural – holistic health and healing .

My hospital and rehab experience was as it should have been . Over 30 days after surgery I cancelled an MRI to receive a call from Drs office saying a lesion had been found on my liver but was probably nothing !

Seriously ! A $10,000 MRI required when no mention was made of the liver lesson for 30 days !

Then I received a packet of forms from a cancer specialist and I cancelled that Dr

I have a Dr I have confidence in and feel confident of our treatment plan

I am using topical testosterone to help build muscle mass and am not at all treated to adverse reactions .

I have had sweet lessons and some harsh ones and am releasing energies whom ever they be that are not aware of my change and worth

I’m not gonna loose faith due to medical debts but my income is stretched to the max which allows this “ ground hog day “ financial crisis and was gratified to note an increase in my income last year which was unexpected in this 2nd year of contract that should not increase nor decrease!

I’m focused on finding a home as prices fall and not trying to stress over many examples of lower energies who do much harm

Spiritual attacks are a reality but I am freed .

I’m winging it again as my helper had pressing personal problems including relocating.

All is well with my soul 🙏😘❤️

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

Unmourned Loss

Our problem is not that as children our needs were unmet, but that, as adults, they are still unmourned. In fact, neediness itself tells us nothing about how much we need from others; it tells us how much we need to grieve the irrevocably barren past and evoke our own inner source of nurturance. What was missed can never be made up for, only mourned and let go of. We are grieving the irretrievable aspect of what we lost and the irreplaceable aspect of what we missed. Only these two realizations led to resolution of grief because only these acknowledge, without denial, how truly bereft we were or are. From the pit of this deep admission that something is irrevocably over and gone we finally stand clear of the insatiable need to find it again from our parents or partner. To have sought it was to have denied how utter was its absence.

~ David Richo

[Art: Jennifer Parks http://www.spectralgardens.com%5D