The split has begun

My life is calm , if not peaceful, as the unraveling , revelations cast light , that is not seen nor acknowledged by one’s held dear in my heart .

Wobbly is definitely how it feels , and I definitely want and need more on my own time, as I pray and hold patience.

All is not as it should be and that’s coming , soon.

As I hold space , for others, in their own journey , their own destination , while I am in reality holding plan B , and a ” fuck it bucket” for those things I release, those things and people that have no interest in rising to their higher self, the self of higher power , of knowing yourself and your gifts .

For over 20 years , I have exampled the monster in the closet , disposal, hatred and vengeance , the lack of love and respect and a preference to lie , cheat and steal , in order to own power that’s distorted realities .

My miss is my mercy , and so happily , I seek my home , a fall of preparing , a winter of rest and writing , and peace in my heart .

I never wanted certain things to be hopeless, and I prefer to have faith that what’s meant for me will be : Thy Will Be Done .

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With holding love

“Parents who hold our grandchildren hostage in an effort to have their demands of us met, such as an apology, money, or even a change of behavior etc.., are essentially withholding love from their own children for personal gain. It’s not much different than punching your kids in the stomach every time you get a stomach ache so they can feel your pain.” ~Anue Nue

Wishing you enough

Recently overheard was a father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the father said, ‘I love you, and I wish you enough.’
The daughter replied, ‘Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.’
They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, ‘Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?’
‘Yes, I have,’ I replied. ‘Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?’..
‘I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is – the next trip back will be for my funeral,’ he said.
‘When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough..’ May I ask what that means?’
He began to smile. ‘That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone…’
He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. ‘When we said, ‘I wish you enough,’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.’ Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.
He then began to cry and walked away.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.
Only if you wish, send this to the people you will never forget. If you don’t send it to anyone it may mean that you are in such a hurry that you have forgotten your friends.
TAKE TIME TO LIVE….
To all my Friends and Family – I WISH YOU ENOUGH

Dinner with Laura Bell,7/27/23

1)

Fried green tomatoes

2) Laura Bell & Dona Luna

3) Dona Luna’s Aui Tuna , sea salad , asparagus

Delicious

4) Laura Bell had beef tips , asparagus and roasted potatoes .

I drank Hibiscus Ginger Beer .

Logan and the entire crew was rocking dinner for sure !