Tag: consciousness

Dear Child who watched their parents fall apart

Dear Child Who Watched Their Parents Fall Apart,

You remember the slammed doors.

The words that cut through walls.

The silence that said more than shouting ever could.

You remember trying to be small,

to not take up space, to be the reason they stayed

or at least the reason they didn’t fight that night.

And you tried—you tried so hard to keep the peace in a war that wasn’t yours.

You didn’t understand all of it,

but you felt it.

The shift.

The distance.

The way love started to sound different—like something sharp and cold.

You watched the people who were supposed to teach you how to love, forget how to love each other.

And that kind of heartbreak?

It stays with you in quiet ways.

In the way you flinch at conflict.

In the way you over-apologize.

In the way you question if love always ends in leaving.

But none of this was your fault.

Not the tension.

Not the breaking.

Not the way they stopped looking at each other like they used to.

You were just a child.

And children should never have to carry adult heartbreak.

You deserved to feel safe.

To feel shielded.

To feel like your home was a soft place to land—not a battlefield with no winner.

So if no one ever told you this before,

hear it now:

You were never the problem.

You were just the quiet witness to something they couldn’t hold together.

And you deserved so much more peace than they gave you.

You still do.

Death of Mother

This was very difficult for me ; my Mom died April 9, 1999, after 5 intense years of heart disease , surgery and sepsis ( MERSA) and 4 months after X walked out .

Heavily medicated , grief was delayed, healing was delayed until I began the process of healing 2004. It was very traumatic , the loss even more severe.

“The death of your mother is not comparable to the death of the man you loved: it is the prelude to your death. Because it is the death of the creature that conceived you, carried in the womb, gifted life.

And your flesh is her flesh, your blood is her blood, your body is an extension of her body: the moment she dies, a part of you or the principle of you dies physically, nor is the umbilical cord cut to separate you.

To postpone that death which was a prelude to my death, so I stayed awake.

To keep me awake I kept her awake and talked, talked.

I told her what I had never told her and I would never tell to anyone, my wounds, my regrets, my doubts, precious burden however, since it was life itself, I told her that despite those wounds and regrets and doubts, I loved life very much.

I was so happy to be born, and I thanked her on my knees for giving birth to me.”

( ✍️ Oriana Fallaci -“The Meaning of Life”)

Art : Max Ernst

Resonance

Matter as Music: Sympathetic Vibratory Physics and the Scalar Architecture of Reality

“In the beginning was the Tone…”

In the realm of Sympathetic Vibratory Physics, we are invited to look beneath the veil of appearance—not to dismantle the world into parts, but to hear its song. This framework does not merely study matter; it listens to its music. It suggests that the universe is not a machine, but a resonant organism, where energy, form, and consciousness all arise from fundamental vibratory relationships.

Here, matter unfolds like music.

Each element in the periodic table is not just a configuration of protons, neutrons, and electrons—it is a standing wave, a unique chord struck in the great scalar octave of creation. These chords are not arbitrary. They are expressions of deeper harmonic laws, much like the tones of a well-tuned instrument. What we perceive as “substance” is, in this view, the visible imprint of an invisible harmony—a crystallized resonance.

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The Scalar Octave: The Hidden Ladder of Form

In contrast to the more familiar transverse waves (like light or sound), scalar waves are longitudinal, non-Hertzian, and more akin to internal ripples in the etheric field—vibrations that do not travel through space, but alter the structure of space itself. These scalar fields are fundamental carriers of formative information. They act as geometric wombs, shaping how vibration coalesces into energy, and how energy descends into matter.

The scalar octave is not merely metaphor. It is a real hierarchy of vibratory domains—nested frequency ranges wherein energy steps down through successive thresholds of coherence. This process mirrors the musical scale: as notes rise or fall in pitch, they repeat patterns at higher or lower orders. Similarly, matter manifests in octaves of vibration—hydrogen resonates in the first octave, helium in the second, and so on. These are not accidental frequencies but expressions of an underlying harmonic lattice.

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Elements as Chords: The Music of the Periodic Table

Each element is a chordal entity—a bundle of vibratory frequencies stabilized in geometric proportion. Just as musical chords arise from precise relationships between tones (ratios like 3:2 or 5:4), atomic structures form through harmonic resonance in the field of potential.

• Hydrogen is the fundamental, the root note of matter.

• Carbon, the tetrahedral architect of life, is a four-note harmony—a stable structure of balance and creativity.

• Oxygen—life’s breath—is a chord that energizes and catalyzes.

• Gold is the high harmonic, a metal of solar resonance, often seen as the physical analog of spiritual incorruptibility.

These elemental chords can interact, combine, or transmute—just as musical notes form complex overtones when played together. The alchemist’s dream of transmutation is not impossible in this worldview—it is simply a question of retuning the vibratory field. Transmutation is harmonic engineering.

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Form, Sound, and the Living Geometry of Resonance

When vibration is coherent, it gives rise to form. This is the basis of cymatics—where sound organizes particles into complex geometric patterns. Extend this principle into the scalar realm, and you begin to see how atoms, molecules, cells, and even galaxies may be expressions of standing waves within higher-dimensional harmonic fields.

This resonance is sympathetic—it spreads by tuning, not force. When one frequency finds its match, it calls it into vibration, like strings across space. This is the hidden dynamic behind gravity, magnetism, and even consciousness itself. The universe is not a closed mechanism but a field of interrelated tones, where all things influence each other through harmonic correspondence.

In this light, sacred geometry is not decorative—it is descriptive. It maps the resonance patterns that give rise to form: the flower of life, the golden ratio, the Platonic solids—these are not symbols imposed upon matter, but frequencies frozen into shape.

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The Role of Consciousness: The Cosmic Tuner

Perhaps most profound in sympathetic vibratory physics is the implication that consciousness itself is vibratory—not an emergent property of the brain, but a primary resonance in the fabric of reality. Mind tunes matter. Thought, intention, and emotion become scalar acts—affecting reality not by mechanical force, but through sympathetic entrainment.

This positions the human being not as a passive observer of a dead cosmos, but as a co-resonator within the cosmic symphony. When we meditate, sing, pray, or visualize, we are tuning the strings. We are playing chords in the scalar octave—activating harmonics that ripple outward into the morphogenetic field.

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Toward a Harmonic Science of Reality

Sympathetic Vibratory Physics is not a fringe theory—it is a paradigm in waiting, bridging the mystical and the mathematical, the ancient and the futuristic. It unifies music and matter, form and field, sacred geometry and scalar science. It points toward a universe where coherence is power, where form is resonance made visible, and where the key to transformation lies not in force, but in tuning.

Matter is not mute. It sings.

And every element is a note played by the cosmos—

A chord in the eternal score of becoming… xx

Restoration of the Womb

Wombs are no longer portals of pain—

they are returned to their sacred station

as Stargates of Pure Creation.

The anchors of life-light now stabilize

in every mother, every child, every being

who remembers they are worthy of creating in love,

from joy, from innocence, from wholeness.

🫶🏼Raylene Short | Roots Restored Wellness

Allow yourself to be carried

Can you allow yourself to be ‘carried’ into The Divine? Which will mean letting go of the every day, personal, subtle control that hangs onto the illusional experience within a controlling, containing, gradually dissolving construct.

UNION IN THE DIVINE:

Within the Divine Union Stage, there is a specific point, where we are THEN carried. Words to describe this become ever more difficult, but a STAGE where you are then CARRIED into the emergence of God Source and all the Self Realisation and Consciousness that shall then…come.

SEEMINGLY REAL CHOICES:

If it is your destiny to become Self Realised again within this lifetime, you will have made MANY previous choices relating to your own life. Choices, no matter your culture or ‘way’ / style, to attain the conscious awareness of The Divine within you and around you. For the human, still within the Construct but on a spiritualised or awakening journey, many of those choices will have seemed painful, difficult, hard, or at times confusing. Choices that you KNOW take you into ‘No man’s land’ again and again at a human level. Yet you have the innate courage to do so. And keep walking. At the human level. letting go again and again, of so much, just to STAY TRUE to your KNOWING of your path and of your destiny.

PREDESIGNED BLUEPRINT:

But ALL those choice junctions, the choices you made via your human heart (NOT the ego and NOT from fear) were necessary. Whilst it seemed you had a choice each time, the choices you actually made were predesigned within your blueprint, prior to THIS incarnation. Whilst those choices may have seemingly appeared as your ‘free will’ choice to make, and may have seemed a ‘free will’ choice to others around you…You were always predestined to choose the highest answers that take you to your Destiny in and of God Realisation this lifetime. In other words, what seemed at a human level to be sometimes difficult choices, those choices were predesigned junctures, intertwined to your Divine path. They only seemed or appeared hard at a human level of consciousness within the human personality. That was in many degrees of forgetfulness. Choice Points that you knew would either: Keep you within the programme and cycling there OR a choice that you knew would take you another step further, closer and closer towards a State of God Realisation.

On 16 February 2025 , I was given, clearly and loudly in sleep time the words “MAGNUM OPUS”. I later researched this unknown phrase, to find it translates as “The Great Work”. I then heard within the same sleeping state, The One Divine Source, speak these words:

“I (meaning God) set myself a series of tests”.

The ‘tests’, for anyone on the path, are always SEEMINGLY experienced as our human choices. And HOW we ALSO navigate and REACT to experiences presented. As REACTIONS are also a choice. The key and way of this assimilated game is to MAKE the highest choices each time they present. Choices can be very very subtle, hardly noticeable. Or they can be difficult junctures to make a highest choice.

Yet step after step, day after day, year after year, within the Construct and Game, more choices arrive, as esoteric tests. You can also call these initiations. Do you keep to your choices made or fall back into the illusion? Do you stay true to your inner path that has it’s own unique blueprint or fall into distraction and the allure of the plane of physical and material phenomena? No other has your own unique blueprint. No one truly will ever know it in such daily living detail as you do. No one has lived your life or experienced the constant details of your awakening journey. The ONLY ‘other’ that knows the WHOLE of your predesigned blueprint, is your Soul and The Divine. Yet these are not ‘others’. They are you, one and the same.

And so, after many stages, many tests, you enter the stage of Divine Union of The One and Only Divine Essence. And whilst there are also MANY steps and micro stages WITHIN The Divine Union Stage, there comes a juncture…where you are then carried.

Within a spiritual path, we can say we flow, and just allow, yet at a very subtle and sometimes unseen level, there is still so much inner control. But truly I say, if we are happy to view the personality self we operate as, we see the many subtle ways each HOLD ON to micro controls of their living life. Controlling what we do, when we do it, how we do things, who with, is OUR INNER form of control of our human self. It’s so subtle, it is often not seen. The outer control system (of beings and energetic entities) is so easily seen, that tries every trick to keep us locked into the illusion and construct of control. But the inner control system we have over our daily life and choices is less observed and spoken about.

NOTICE INNER RESISTANCE:

Resistance to letting go, is of, but the human, holding on to or seeking anything alluring of an illusional constructed reality, or it can be a fear based resistance born of illusional belief systems. Yet in the seeng…in the letting go, we are carried… of and by the One Divine Presence.

Can you let go, in all ways. Can you make the highest HEART choice every day? That leads to eventually a stage of being carried? For to do so is the laying down of your life lived. To be RE-BORN, by / of The Divine. And only the Divine One Source does this within you. No other can do this for you. And this is why I always say: “Be TRUE and Stay TRUE to your known and unique Divine path”. No matter your design and no matter the design blueprint of ‘others’. And that choice to be true to your path is not born ever, from the ego. But is born of quiet courage, of the many ‘knowings’ you’ve received in many different ways. Constant ways. And so being and staying TRUE to your path is always a choice of the Heart. As well as the accumulated wisdoms of your Soul that is also ever present Divine Love. That is Divine and devoted to your Self Realisation this Lifetime.

With Love Always,

Amanda Lorence

9 April 2025

Artist thanked 🙏💜