Tag: intimate partner violence

Awoke Masculine vs Parasitic Attachment


The awoken masculine energy is one of the most beautiful things on this or any other planet.

But first. Before it realizes its truth.

It will betray. Hurt. Play. And discard the feminine as if nothing.

In the distorted clouds of what it knows

it will run from the power of the love it had never previously felt or known

And after it pushes away and discards the feminine, between numbing, crying and distracting — everything will slowly dawn.

Regardless of how hard it tries to hide from the love it feels unworthy of.

It will realize

Jigsaw piece by jigsaw piece —

— That the feminine is the only one that that ever truly cared. Truly loved. Truly seen. The masculine.

And the regret will hit like a train full of lead hitting a mountain the size of a planet.

The truth of who the feminine is will show itself though the divine

Numbers and symbols and dreams.

In realization after realization

Sign after sign

Who the feminine has always been

Intentions of pure love

Not just in this life.

In every life

– a kaleidoscope of infinity –

Different faces. Same people.

Feeling lost and helpless, the masculine will delve deeper into the depths of isolation – ripping open the passageways and sealed shut areas of the heart – discovering and realising what has always mattered most.

What had always been there.

A love beyond time and space

Lost in a self sabotaged darkness it chose over the feminine. It will regret. Scream. Cry. As it realizes its own stubbornness and ego destroyed the most beautiful thing it had ever known.

Something pure. Something it lost hope in existing.

And eventually.

It will seek. Tired of its cycles and patterns. Tired of its hiding from its truth.

It will remember the guidance of the feminine.

It will treasure. Every. Word.

It’s reverence – the apology it cannot yet express.

Where it once felt prideful and dismissive and confused.

It will acknowledge the blindness to the wisdom the feminine gave so selflessly

And in a wave of truth —- it won’t take for granted anymore.

What it initially feared within the depths of forever love

It will rise to.

Step by step.

Finding it’s worth

sitting with its traumas and belief systems that caused it to treat people with such coldness and cause so much pain

It will realise that forgiveness starts with self

With doing better

With understanding followed by action

And from within that newfound worth an incorruptible strength will bloom

The masculine will understand where it went wrong. How it was dominated by ego and pride, lust and appearances.

It will realize how all its priorities were in all of the wrong places.

How it was always trying to please everyone except who truly mattered.

In its quest for the truth — strength will keep rising— becoming innate and from the heart

Shedded layer by shedded layer — conviction will unlock as it chops away that which never never mattered or served, the superficial , the parisites and leeches it once listened to — taking back it’s power from a life that now seems alien—

—- It will begin to know no bounds.

It will fight for what it knows to be it’s true north – through any obstacle, any toxicity, any impurity that it was once a slave to.

It will break free of generational cycles slicing away anything that is in the way of the chance for forgiveness and unity with the feminine with it’s gleaming and pure sword of truth

doing what it must to return home

It will understand it’s birthright

A warrior.

Not a slave.

It will shed. It will change. In the name of what it has recognized to be home.

It will see no greater treasure than what it once pushed away and overlooked.

Not the status it once clung to. Or the opinions of others it chose over the feminine

And when it does step up. Owning its truth.

Reaching out. Despite it’s greatest fear of Rejection.

It won’t be the same person.

It will honor and protect the guidance and expansion of its feminine

It will be faithful.

Powerful.

And support the brilliance of the feminine by being the person the masculine always was to begin with.

A beautiful expression of the divine.

A warrior of love.

– by Matthew Cullen

Narcissist Self Image is Everything

The narcissist’s self-image is everything, and he or she will wager everything on it – doing things that are unlawful, dangerous and criminal to uphold it. This naturally put his or her business at risk – and the narcissist has no issue in twisting facts and setting someone else up to take the fall when the trouble happens.
The justifications that the narcissist is capable of making to pathologise his or her behaviour are incredible.
Narcissists are disordered; their brain wiring is maladapted to circuits that are not healthy, or humane. The narcissist can justify immoral, inhumane and criminal behaviour easily because their soul was sold to serve the one true master – The False Self – long ago.
It’s important to understand narcissists will believe, firmly, that the person they are setting up to take the blame is at fault. Their minds are highly adept at creating a self-delusional story that exonerates their “above reproach at all costs” ego. Once this story has been replayed through the narcissist disordered mind a few times – it is TRUE to the narcissist. That is the extent of the disorder – superiority and impunity are necessary for the narcissist’s emotional survival.
This can seem incredibly personal – until we understand that narcissists are operating out of horrendous childish survival fears. The narcissist’s unconscious drivers are entrenched in this defence: “If I am exposed as wrong I’ll be annihilated,” which triggers the narcissist’s biggest fear – the bottom line terror of the ego – the fear of NOT existing.
The narcissist believes he or she must be seen as “perfect.” However, the intense fear and defences conversely create the narcissist’s character as not just “imperfect” but also highly disordered and damaged.
This becomes blatantly obvious if the spotlight is on the narcissist for any accountability for his or her actions or non-actions. This is when the narcissist becomes the most unhinged, or the most dishonest and manipulative.
He or she will do anything to avoid personal fault and scrutiny, and if someone can be scapegoated, the narcissist will employ this tactic.
Read more on Narcissists in the Workplace and what to do in this article – https://bit.ly/38013uD.
Much love xo ❤️

Mom sues Judge GAL and ex for 8million

Mom Sues Judge, GAL, Ex for $8M in U.S. Federal CourtConspiracy to Deprive of Due Process & Equal Protection
Aneta Hadzi-Tanovic, leader of the local Illinois Women’s Coalition, has filed an $8 million federal lawsuit against the Family Court judge, Robert Wade Johnson, the GAL, and her ex for conspiring to deprive her of her right to due process and equal protection, as well as for “abuse of process” and “intentional infliction of emotional distress”.
Aneta’s custody nightmare mirrors women’s cases all over the country and world in which Family Court judges disregard substantial negative evidence about the father, and fabricate negative evidence about the mother, in order to justify switching custody to the father. 
In Aneta’s case, the judge ignored substantial evidence of physical, psychological and emotional abuse by the father, much of it gathered by police, a forensic interviewer and social services.
Instead of protecting the children, the judge falsely found Aneta to have coached them to report abuse (i.e. alienating), and so is emotionally abusive, despite no evidence supporting that finding. Then he allowed the father to alienate the kids from her to the point that they refuse to talk to her on the phone and are so badly behaved in supervised visitation that she cannot keep a supervisor. 
Aneta had a wonderful, loving relationship with her children and believed their disclosures of abuse. She did everything possible to protect them, but now her relationship with them has been destroyed. She has not seen her children in over a year now. 
Through her pain, Aneta has managed to gather the strength to hit back by filing this federal lawsuit detailing how the judge and GAL conspired in the taking and alienating of her children.
The U.S. Statute 42 U.S.C. §1983 does not provide for injunctions against state judges, so it will not affect the custody ruling or bring her children back. But Aneta hopes publicity on the injustice she has endured, and especially a win, will help her case moving forward and help expose the injustices women everywhere are being subjected to.
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LAWSUIT COUNTS1. Conspiracy to deprive of due process [42 U.S.C. §1983]2. Conspiracy to deprive of equal protection under the law [42 U.S.C. §1983]3. Abuse of process [intentional tort]4. Intentional infliction of emotional distress [intentional tort]
IN ANETA’S OWN WORDSMy ex has been abusing my children and me for very long time. He filed 6 times to DCFS claiming I am abusing my children, all of which were rejected as unfounded.  My children reported that he is forcing them to lie, but nothing has been done about it. I filed a Motion for 604.10(b) Psychological Evaluation and that was denied.   
In June 2017, I was forced to sign a 50/50 Allocation Judgment under a threat by the GAL that if I don’t sign it, they will take my kids away. This was all 2 days after the Judge allowed my attorney to withdraw without giving me 21 days to retain new one, all of which is in direct violation of the Illinois Supreme Court Rule 13. 
After the divorce, my ex intensified his abuse and my children reported him to social services, school officials, police, DCFS, and even a video-recorded forensic interview was done. Even though all the evidence was against my ex, the police, social services and forensic investigations were all quickly dismissed after the former GAL got involved again into everything. 
In court it was all turned against me, with multiple false testimonies by the GAL, and my time was reduced from 50% to supervised visits only. There were periods of 6 months when I didn’t see or even talk to my children at all because my ex and the GAL would not agree to any supervisors. And then when supervisors were finally appointed, my ex would attack one after another for supposedly not doing their job, and they would refuse to do any more supervision. 
In the meantime my children went from loving and caring and wanting to spend time with me, to swearing at me, attacking me, and stealing the stuff from my house, which was also why the last 4 supervisors refused come around my children again and supervise visits. 
TWC NOTE: If you’d like to join your local coalition, email: mycoalition@womenscoalitioninternational.org