Dixie Chick’s: Traveling Soldier

This song Traveling Soldier came to mind as I considered all the veterans, of many wars ..wars of the soul and spirit

My 1st boyfriend became my 1st husband and brought much shame into our union .

My brother , perhaps my whole family at that time knew of his shadow but kept secrets of his infidelity .

After 9 months of trauma and abuse ( he was working out of town 4 nights a week ); he was drafted .

He left me with orders .

And his 65 cherry πŸ’ red GTO.

I rebelled against his abuse and unknown secrets that had a very negative energy to them .I was sensitive to these unknowns but unaware of my intuition . Of course I had faith but was overwhelmed at being treated like a possession .

I don’t recall any discussions or plans for the future .

I wed due the loss of my virginity ..

And it was over , he filed for divorce , took emergency leave and took possession of his car .

I had nothing to say except that I was too young to be married .

Charged with abandonment …

Then

Marriage to a man who for 4plus decades has held his trauma , puking it out on others , making others responsible .

At the sale of the family business he began to travel or claimed to.

In high trauma made worse by psychiatric drugs , I needed him . Our eldest drove me to various motels in the area . He was not at any of them but it certainly was an education of his habits unknown to me

Runner

Ghosted

A guest or drop in …

His secrets , his war, his lies and his projected blame and shame are his and his alone .

There are all kinds of soldiers, veterans, and survivors and very long and crooked the long and twisted journey to leave that war , to loose children and grandchildren to such distortion.

To discover , it’s money power motivated , the ever pressing need to WIN against and release of a past that did much destruction and cannot exist in the consciousness and awareness of the existence of abuses that harm children by erasing a parent .

Blessings πŸ’š πŸ™Œ Peace ✌ πŸ™ ❀

Dona Luna

Over A Decade of Being Over Him

Never saw him as the package that included our sons .

Business of old , irregular , illegal is finally going to be resolved .

Surprised at the hold out ? Not I, I heard complaints over a $2 bank charge for him to automatically deposit my Spousal Support .. Of course he was relived of that , though judgements brought up his many car payments etc

Mentioned that he was to be responsible , however that varied ..the energy shifted and outcomes varied until the last hearing .

My words , he will never have enough of my money . It’s endless. I do not wish to question him due to his lying .

Initiate Partner Violence

Malignant

High Conflict

Very few lawyers know this , and it’s not merely Domestic Violence when a marriage is obtained when the other is targeted as the abuser .

It has delayed the liberation of our 3 children and their children until recent events , allow that his WAR is HIS and I release him to that eternal war within .

Clearing this took so much effort and resistance, but upon my ancestors revelations and history I learned I had the honor of clearing this , and added to my vow to create a safe world for Harper Ann who will never have the abusive experiences of her ancestors.

Of course that applies to 5 grandsons too

His kids

There’s lots to heal and I know that’s imposing but the rising out of that trauma has a universal theme ..a drum beat and one just need surrender to their highest power and ask to be gentle in the release ..knowing I was ready to leap forward and end the never ending narrative of an abuser who is a victim and owns his power in money and has spent plenty to thwart my truths .

My healing has been tested these past 7 months intensely but my faith remains .

I am grateful πŸ™ πŸ₯²

Love % Blessings

Dona Luna ✌ ✌ ✌