



This song Traveling Soldier came to mind as I considered all the veterans, of many wars ..wars of the soul and spirit
My 1st boyfriend became my 1st husband and brought much shame into our union .
My brother , perhaps my whole family at that time knew of his shadow but kept secrets of his infidelity .
After 9 months of trauma and abuse ( he was working out of town 4 nights a week ); he was drafted .
He left me with orders .
And his 65 cherry π red GTO.
I rebelled against his abuse and unknown secrets that had a very negative energy to them .I was sensitive to these unknowns but unaware of my intuition . Of course I had faith but was overwhelmed at being treated like a possession .
I don’t recall any discussions or plans for the future .
I wed due the loss of my virginity ..
And it was over , he filed for divorce , took emergency leave and took possession of his car .
I had nothing to say except that I was too young to be married .
Charged with abandonment …
Then
Marriage to a man who for 4plus decades has held his trauma , puking it out on others , making others responsible .
At the sale of the family business he began to travel or claimed to.
In high trauma made worse by psychiatric drugs , I needed him . Our eldest drove me to various motels in the area . He was not at any of them but it certainly was an education of his habits unknown to me
Runner
Ghosted
A guest or drop in …
His secrets , his war, his lies and his projected blame and shame are his and his alone .
There are all kinds of soldiers, veterans, and survivors and very long and crooked the long and twisted journey to leave that war , to loose children and grandchildren to such distortion.
To discover , it’s money power motivated , the ever pressing need to WIN against and release of a past that did much destruction and cannot exist in the consciousness and awareness of the existence of abuses that harm children by erasing a parent .
Blessings π π Peace β π β€
Dona Luna
Never saw him as the package that included our sons .
Business of old , irregular , illegal is finally going to be resolved .
Surprised at the hold out ? Not I, I heard complaints over a $2 bank charge for him to automatically deposit my Spousal Support .. Of course he was relived of that , though judgements brought up his many car payments etc
Mentioned that he was to be responsible , however that varied ..the energy shifted and outcomes varied until the last hearing .
My words , he will never have enough of my money . It’s endless. I do not wish to question him due to his lying .
Initiate Partner Violence
Malignant
High Conflict
Very few lawyers know this , and it’s not merely Domestic Violence when a marriage is obtained when the other is targeted as the abuser .
It has delayed the liberation of our 3 children and their children until recent events , allow that his WAR is HIS and I release him to that eternal war within .
Clearing this took so much effort and resistance, but upon my ancestors revelations and history I learned I had the honor of clearing this , and added to my vow to create a safe world for Harper Ann who will never have the abusive experiences of her ancestors.
Of course that applies to 5 grandsons too
His kids
There’s lots to heal and I know that’s imposing but the rising out of that trauma has a universal theme ..a drum beat and one just need surrender to their highest power and ask to be gentle in the release ..knowing I was ready to leap forward and end the never ending narrative of an abuser who is a victim and owns his power in money and has spent plenty to thwart my truths .
My healing has been tested these past 7 months intensely but my faith remains .
I am grateful π π₯²
Love % Blessings
Dona Luna β β β