This song Traveling Soldier came to mind as I considered all the veterans, of many wars ..wars of the soul and spirit
My 1st boyfriend became my 1st husband and brought much shame into our union .
My brother , perhaps my whole family at that time knew of his shadow but kept secrets of his infidelity .
After 9 months of trauma and abuse ( he was working out of town 4 nights a week ); he was drafted .
He left me with orders .
And his 65 cherry 🍒 red GTO.
I rebelled against his abuse and unknown secrets that had a very negative energy to them .I was sensitive to these unknowns but unaware of my intuition . Of course I had faith but was overwhelmed at being treated like a possession .
I don’t recall any discussions or plans for the future .
I wed due the loss of my virginity ..
And it was over , he filed for divorce , took emergency leave and took possession of his car .
I had nothing to say except that I was too young to be married .
Charged with abandonment …
Marriage to a man who for 4plus decades has held his trauma , puking it out on others , making others responsible .
At the sale of the family business he began to travel or claimed to.
In high trauma made worse by psychiatric drugs , I needed him . Our eldest drove me to various motels in the area . He was not at any of them but it certainly was an education of his habits unknown to me
A guest or drop in …
His secrets , his war, his lies and his projected blame and shame are his and his alone .
There are all kinds of soldiers, veterans, and survivors and very long and crooked the long and twisted journey to leave that war , to loose children and grandchildren to such distortion.
To discover , it’s money power motivated , the ever pressing need to WIN against and release of a past that did much destruction and cannot exist in the consciousness and awareness of the existence of abuses that harm children by erasing a parent .
Blessings 💚 🙌 Peace ✌ 🙏 ❤