The trauma of being an unwanted child

This one was huge for me , and I’m so happy to have discovered the most logical explanation of what was a sad and distorted childhood . Mom and I didn’t bond due to a ” cocktail ” of a hallucinogenic RX combined to put a birthing Mom into a trance where there was no memory of birthing her child .

Yes at time it was extremely painful and I was totally wasted as a psychiatric patient

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Sovereign: Releasing & Renewal – Peggy Black & the team

Powerful Being of Manifestation

‘We are here connecting with you through the energy of these words. Words carry the energy of meaning as uniquely translated by your beliefs and programs. We find your words extremely limiting in offering expanded awareness of your true multidimensional existence.

You do not have words to illustrate many of the concepts and truths available to you as a divine, multidimensional being in human form. However since this is the tool that is available and which carries our energy, we use it to invite you to expand again and again.

When we say that you are beings of light, we realize that you have heard this concept many times, yet it might still sound a bit far out to you. It is, however, the truth. As we have expressed before, every cell, as well as your DNA, emits biophotons of light. Imagine that your very skin is like natural solar panels and the energies and frequencies given by the sun, moon and stars continually recharge your aliveness.

The electromagnetic emissions from your cells can now be measured with your modern instrumentation. We realize that you experience yourself as this solid and dense physical form. That is what this experience is about, to recognize that you have a physical vehicle, yet you are a starbeing. You are the essence of light energy that happens to be vibrating at a low frequency which gives you the sense of being solid.

Your real state of existence is a being of light energy. Yet while you are focused on the physical aspect, you are always offering your personal energy signature to all you encounter. Remember, your personal energy signature is influenced by what you have experienced, what you have been taught and what you have been led to believe as well as by the state of your emotions.

As you become aware that you are more than your physical form, consider that you might be a true member of the Galactic family and a starseed being. When you begin to accept this as a real possibility, and understand who you truly are, you begin to expand into your starseed presence.

When you consciously, on purpose, begin to release any limited beliefs and patterns you have acquired, when you clear your emotional storage, when you stop repeating your non-supportive stories, you begin elevating yourself to the higher dimensions. As you begin to refine your energy signature, you vibrate at a higher and purer form of the light spectrum, you begin to own and express yourself as a being of bio-luminosity, a being of light, a true starseed being.

As your frequencies and vibrations increase, the other dimensions become more available to your awareness. Of course this is the goal, is it not?

Your planet is in flux, it is shifting as well, moving to the higher dimensions. You are the active part of this occurring, for you are anchoring more and more conscious light vibrations within the very cells of your physical form.

You are a powerful being of manifestation. Your thoughts, words and emotional focus impact the quantum field. You are interfacing with this energy field in each moment. You are entrained and resonate with this unified field. So when you begin to expand your light quota and hold your focused intentions from a higher level of consciousness, you begin interfacing with the 4th and 5th dimensions of light consciousness.

You are here to anchor your starseed awareness into this reality. When you move your focused attention from the imposed limitations of the 3rd dimension, you begin to remember and open up to your awesome abilities and gifts.

Every situation and every perceived problem now occurring on your planet can and will be resolved with solutions generated from the higher realms of truth. Throughout your history there have been those who have tapped into these higher realms and created music which continues to inspire, art that continues to trigger emotions, and inventions that have changed the course of your history.

So it is a matter of you knowing that you also have the ability and can tap into these higher states of consciousness, realizing that there will be a flow of inspiration and solutions that will be downloaded so to speak. Play with this possibility; allow your imagination to travel to a place where the answers will be revealed. Trust the process. Practice and allow for this to unfold.

When you allow yourself to step outside your limited, perceived reality, you open the doors to unlimited awesome abilities. When you can acknowledge yourself as a powerful creator of your reality, you can begin to make the necessary shifts in attitudes that will change the very reality you are experiencing.

We are inviting you to play big. We are inviting you to own your power to make a difference in your personal life experience as well as the world events. You are invited to own this truth.

Remember, your focused intention will manifest. So begin to embrace yourself as a divine co- creator of this reality. Elevate and evolve your thinking, discard any limited beliefs. Allow yourself to play with the possibilities. Imagine that you are unlimited and as an unlimited, divine starbeing, what would you create?

Your focused intention does affect your reality. Imagine that your focused intentions are capable of changing the very molecular structure of matter. It is the highly coherent frequencies of your light awareness that gives this focus its power to transform.

It is this personal awakening that is occurring in the hearts and minds of humanity that will transform this planet. Realize that energy of thought can and will alter the reality that is the focus. When you begin to reach the frequencies of the higher dimensions and allow yourself to receive and download solutions to the current situations, you are actively bringing more conscious light awareness to the whole.

We are honored to remind you of your true power to create, your true connection with the stars. We celebrate your starseed awareness. We celebrate you stepping into this truth with deep gratitude for your personal work and service that you continue to offer to humanity from your divine presence in partnership with your physical focus. We are always available by your request.’ The ‘Team’

©2024 Peggy Black All Rights Reserved. http://www.morningmessages.com.

Mothering a man-child Narcissist

Truths

When you marry a narcissistic man, you never get the chance to be a wife; instead, you take on the role of a mother because these grown adults behave like man-children. They go to work Monday through Friday and then spend their weekends sitting in front of a laptop, downloading music, playing video games, or creating messes for you to clean. You find yourself both single and a parent simultaneously, shouldering the weight of responsibilities without the support of a partner.

Narcissists don’t marry for love or partnership; they marry because they want a maid, cook, secretary, banker, and a babysitter. They crave control, not connection. Their selfish desires consume them, leaving you to manage the household, raise the children, and cater to their every whim. Your dreams of a loving, equal relationship are shattered, replaced by the harsh reality of servitude.

As the days turn into weeks, and the weeks into years, you become a shadow of your former self. Your identity is erased, replaced by the exhausting duties of managing a narcissist’s life. You’re forced to sacrifice your own desires, interests, and friendships to accommodate their demands. The emotional labor is suffocating, leaving you drained, resentful, and wondering how you ended up in this nightmare.

You’re not alone in this struggle. Many women have fallen prey to the charming facade of a narcissist, only to find themselves trapped in a loveless, thankless role. Remember, you deserve better. You deserve a partner who loves, supports, and respects you. Don’t let the narcissist’s gaslighting convince you otherwise. Break free from this toxic cycle and reclaim your life. You are more than a mother to a man-child; you are a strong, capable, and worthy individual who deserves to be loved and cherished.

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Becoming who we are created to be

The activation for us to embody higher Frequencies has begun. Many of you, in a perpetual state of omnibenevolence and Love, have started to receive the Divine Transmissions required for the next Initiation into higher levels of wisdom. The eclipse in Pisces is facilitating this descension, another great source of wisdom, that is already being formed in our Heavens, even though from our limited view we can only see the final result on the 17th.

All is being perfectly orchestrated to create a cosmic door for us to receive a New embodiment, for we are ready to start the process of Ascension, which is in truth the descension of our Illumined Self, Inner work that Piscean energies support, as it is with Pisces that we learn the final lesson of becoming all Love, Wisdom and Power, removing previous wounds, merging all opposites and BEing only the Love that We are, and always Were.

Many of you are already feeling the impact of the Piscean energies in our main upper channels – crown, skull, and the totality of our head. The activation can be felt, even though we are all unique, as a tingling/vibration feeling in the crown, a soft pressure that initiates the descension of all the transmissions that our God Self, soul, and Monad, are sending us at this time when many are the portals that conglomerate for us to receive a new activation.

The process of light descension starts as you know in our 12th dimensional God Self, for it is from our Illumined Self that we receive all the initiations, healing, and wisdom transferences required to evolve. Once the Light penetrates into our Crown, it inundates our thalamus complex, pineal, pituitary gland, mammillary body, and medulla oblongata, and starts descending into our nervous system through the upper cervical spine.

This is part of the reason why many of you are experiencing many different sensations in your nervous system, and pain in your bone structure, especially feet which Pisces rules too, as this is the one that is most impacted when physical ascension starts, resurrecting our authentic Divine Template.

The current frequencies received at this time are meant to help us transfigure our main fourth dimension chakras, finally stepping into the soul timelines, completely removing an old cycle and all we experienced in it, essential not to bring the same past results into our present reality.

The descension of the light and removal of the lower chakra membranes is what creates the many physical sensations many are now having. This is an organic process in our transformation as a species. Releasing polarization, trauma, soul disconnection, and many other wounds we have created and received, is a challenging process, and it is through compassionate witnessing and soul retrieval that we can soften the many memories it brings and the many sensations it may cause, as this process is not the same for everyone.

As we continue integrating this New Light, our polarities will be balanced, for many of you have been merging both, clearing the traumas hidden within them, waiting for this final activation, when we are finally going to start the long-term process of becoming non-polarized beings.

Non-polarized beings mean to be All Love and Benevolence as my Guides shared today. Omnibenevolence and OmmiLove means to be unlimited Love. The kind of Love that cannot be diminished, manipulated, or tamed in any way.

The kind of Love that allows the Divine influx and that surrenders to it and its Will.

This is what we are becoming, who we are in Essence, who we were created to be, for we have been experiencing who we are not for so long that now remembering feels unpleasant for the body, accustomed to being exposed to all the unlove we have created and fomented, often unconsciously.

It is time to be only Love, for us, for All, and for the whole, Beloveds.

Thank you for allowing Love in for All Creation.

Within Infinite Love,

Natalia Alba

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5th Dimension Relationships

To The Ascension LightWorker Collective

The real reasons the ascending may be experiencing being single in the higher dimensions is because in this much higher realm you are healed and vibrating at higher levels of knowledge frequencies which makes the self highly incompatible for codependent relationships , trauma bonds and unhealthy 3D connections .

Unfortunately trauma bonds is the template for the low conscious and broken 3D culture as anyone who chooses peace over trauma will have difficulty in lower conscious relationships as most people we meet in the programmed world are in 2-3D and are emotionally , mentally and spiritually damaged and dysfunctional in many different ways .

Healed individuals vibrating in higher frequencies will only seek lightminded and higher conscious connections , these higher vibrating connections create authenticity ,honesty , integrity, transparency , respect , equality , truth , alignment and shared values and beliefs .

Fifth-dimensional relationships enhances exisiting freedom and joy, serving as investments in the interconnectedness of people, places, and nature. They emerge from God’s unconditional love, offering an environment for safety, respect, love and understanding, expressing evolutionary expansion in shared development.

5th dimensional relationships are extremely different from third-dimensional ones, as they are built to maintain and sustain themselves rather than eventually breaking down . Both parties in higher consciousness fully support reconnection with their divine nature and higher self , they support the other in higher realms , throughout their incarnations, they have consciously evolved to provide a sense of true belonging and higher Ascended connection.

The truth is 95 percent of the 3D relationships and marriages in 3D dimensional perceptions and awareness are actually trauma bonded because they feel they need another half of themselves to make them feel whole , however they eventually become disappointed because they find they are in an unhealthy and codependency connection , this creates dysfunctional mentality , combined shadow aspects and are empty emotionally.

In the realm of 3D , relationships can be a confused and complex tapestry of Ego, dysfunction, health issues , obsessiveness secrecy, infidelity, illusions, lies, criticisms, power struggles, control , delusions, hierarchy, psychological confusion , lack of effective communication , abuse , stress, manipulation, and gaslighting intertwined.

All third dimensional relationships are built to break whether they choose to remain together or not . The third dimensional human beings on this planet were here to experience separation, struggle , loss, and fear. Humanity agreed to participate in this divine experiment of amnesia that required our civilisation to find its way back to its Divine Source of its own free will.

Humans are experts in suffering as they took this indoctrinated task seriously and over time became extremely skilled in hurting themselves and others , this is the truth and reason why transformation in self if essential , to escape the programmed and perceived struggling , Realms of all nature here on Earth supports this experience . Allowing humanity the free will of birth right creation .Lower consciousness learned to destroy connections rather than nurture and honour them , to the point that they were in great danger of destroying our civilisations and the planet as a whole in which we live on .

Fifth dimensional relationships are built to Maintain and sustain themselves . In this moment, those single on this journey may not be focused on loving someone else, but rather on authentically loving the self . It is a time in self’s ascension level where some may feel challenged to be their own source of Love strength and security. Allowing the right connection to unfold organically , once the self feels loved and safe within , they naturally attract their aligned counterpart , when all expectations cease to exist and the self is healed , whole and feeling complete .

As we ascend we become the point of attraction. This is why there is no forcing or controlling. There is recieving and allowing in the fifth dimensional existence. Feeling at peace and trusting in the divine process taking shape .

Love and compassion are necessities in humanity and not luxuries. Without them humanity cannot survive. Soul intimacy arises from a profound sense of purpose and interconnectedness, based in the understanding of our inherent Oneness. fifth-dimensional relationships are purposeful, never casual, and do not waste energy on trivial and meaningless concerns. They compliment and enhance the values in each other , they are in a consistent synchronistic flow , and are conscious of their highest good . Both parties encourage the authentic and true expression in the other .

They consciously create collaboration, equality, and a profound appreciation for the roles, service, and love shared. Participants deeply respect and commit to fulfilling the work they have come together to accomplish, resulting in a profound sense of satisfaction , feeling valued and expanding in shared joy.

Ascending Souls , Those that were needed to be left behind , those you left , or who left you and hurt you only brought you back to your original and true self, in this place you are doing Exceptionally well. We are ascending , rebuilding, re identifying and readjusting, being kinder and more understanding with the self ,the soul / higher self is in tremendous gratitude for this higher opportunity, it’s now about giving Self the same love that was always given out to many others throughout many life times , including this one .

Self love is the true path in raising the vibrational frequency within , this is true for all human being God is found only from within and not outside of self , this is why Self love is the highest form of unconditional Love one can ever truly Experience and Embody .

Ascending Starseeds are no longer rushing their heart or relying on others to heal, rescue and fix them . Instead, they are thriving on their own feeling connected with higher self and light team . They are striving and healing , merging and melding in the higher self aspects , naturally sharing love wherever they go , the meld with source love Creator is the ultimate goal of ascension. Seeking God’s love ensures we are filled with peace , love, expanding our light in every moment . The feeling of Source Divine Love in higher dimensions is what heals and cures all things within .

Love transcends the mere act of loving another person in this world. It is the essence that radiates from the heart, encompassing love for many others, our ascending planet, the universe, the higher creator realms.

True love is an omnipotent force that resides in all cosmic spaces, places, people, animals, nature, and the vastness of our oceans. Unconditional Love is the highest dimension that heals a multitude of sin. It is found in the realms of Divine connection and Creation .

With Love and Devoted Ascension Service 💜

By Ascension Lightworkers . ©️