Tag: consciousness

Not Crazy : Finding Yourself

You’re not losing your mind—

you’re finding your Self.

At some point, the world may

begin to feel surreal.

Synchronicities start stacking up.

Time bends. People drift away.

Emotions intensify.

Everything starts to feel like a message.

Like something is chasing you.

And in a way—it is.

But it’s not here to harm you.

It’s here to wake you up.

The Universe isn’t outside of you—

it is you.

It’s been leaving clues

in your heartbreaks,

breadcrumbs in your dreams,

and Easter eggs tucked into your hardest moments.

You planted them yourself.

Because somewhere beyond time,

you knew you’d forget who you were.

And so, you left love notes in

the folds of your life—

disguised as pain, as longing,

as synchronicity.

You are not being hunted.

You are being called back.

And when the roles reverse—

when you begin to chase the mystery instead of run from it—

you’ll realize you’re not searching for answers.

You’re searching for reminders.

Of the love you are.

Of the wholeness you forgot.

Of the sacred truth that you are

the seeker and the sought.

Every emotion you’ve ever felt,

every version of you that has ever been,

is rising now to be remembered—

not to overwhelm you,

but to reunite with you.

Yes, it can feel like too much.

Yes, it’s messy and loud and sometimes unbearably quiet.

Yes, it’s all at once. And it’s okay.

Because here’s the truth:

You’re not alone.

There are others feeling this too.

Some of us are still in the thick of it—breathing through it, breaking through it, becoming through it.

I am.

I’m still remembering.

I still have so much left to see,

to feel, to hold.

And I’m choosing to stay.

To walk it out. To sit in the discomfort.

To meet myself again and again with Love.

This isn’t about having the answers.

It’s about being willing to listen.

To lean in , even when the path disappears beneath your feet.

We’re not here to escape ourselves.

We’re here to become ourselves.

Not perfectly. Not all at once.

But honestly. Lovingly. Truthfully.

So if you’re feeling this—

if the Universe feels too loud or too quiet—

just know:

You’re not the only one listening.

You’re not crazy. You’re not broken.

You’re waking up.

And you are so , so Loved.

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Take a Breath.

Place your hand over your Heart.

Whisper: “I am here. I am remembering.

I am Love becoming.”

That’s enough for today.

~ Kara Anaya ❤️

Why having a baby triggers a Narcissist 👶

This is very accurate! Jealous of a newborn , I was shown very primal , very scary proof , only 6 days after giving birth !

Allowing me to eventually grasp the distorted reality of his ” normal ” rights and privileges.

Intent on destroying that bond ; his mission accomplished , a decade later ! With assistance

youtube.com/shorts/pwMaFjNRyE0

Brainwashed- Charlie McCready

The moment an alienated child begins to grasp the reality of their situation—a stark realisation that they have been indoctrinated, coached, – brainwashed – by the very parent they believed was protecting them—can be profoundly upsetting. It’s as if a veil has been lifted, exposing a painful truth that shatters the illusions they have held onto – sometimes for a very long time. They may have fought against really believing the truth, because with it comes a mix of difficult emotions: a deep sense of betrayal, anger, sadness and regret.⁠

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The weight of the false narratives they’ve embraced can press heavily on their heart. They reflect on the hurtful words they’ve been taught to say, the anger they’ve expressed, and the love they’ve withheld from the parent who only ever wanted to care for them. The loss of precious time spent in conflict can be an agonising weight to bear. For them as for us. They mourn the memories that could have been—birthdays, holidays, and simple moments of family life. With each recollection, they may also grapple with feelings of foolishness for having believed the lies and allowed themselves to be swayed into a camp that vilified the other parent. ⁠

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It’s a painful cognitive dissonance—the love/loyalty they’ve had for their alienating parent now colliding with the guilt of having rejected the other. they may feel not only betrayed by the parent who manipulated them but also a realisation that they have been used as a pawn, they’ve been weaponised. This can lead to feelings of anger towards both themselves and the alienating parent. However, with time, they can unearth the truth, reconnect with the love they’ve always held for their other parent, and reclaim their sense of self. The journey ahead may be challenging, it’s like a detoxification, and it can also be a path to rediscovering love, trust, and the potential for meaningful reconnections.⁠

#charliemccready

#parentalalienationcoach

#abuseinthefamily

#pathogenicparent

#coercivecontrol

Alienated Children grieve in silence

Many alienated children know, deep down, that they have one parent’s love. Often, it is the parent who loves conditionally—the one often exhibiting toxic, narcissistic, or borderline personality traits—from whom they crave affection, sacrificing their happiness and their relationship with the other parent in the process. Children inherently desire love from both parents. A child does not naturally reject a parent, even an abusive one (which I’ve covered in other posts), and needs to be far better understood. ⁠

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The targeted parent, like the child, has likely been operating in survival mode within a toxic home environment. If the healthier-minded parent chooses to leave because the home life has become unbearable—recognising that it is harmful for the child too—the fears triggered in the toxic parent can escalate alienating behaviours, which may have already been in play, either overtly or covertly. At this juncture, if not before, the previously loved parent is demonised by the toxic parent, who now positions themselves as the best mother or father in the world.⁠

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The child, who may have long craved the love and attention of the toxic parent, may become enamoured with the newfound closeness and the secrets (often lies and delusions) shared by that parent. Yet, they are also scared and confused. They might begin to question whether they misjudged their other (target) parent: Have they truly been abandoned? Did that parent ever love them? This internal conflict often manifests as anger or loyalty to the alienating parent, masking the deeper grief they experience. Their grief may not be overt; instead, it can be expressed through rage, confusion, and compliance, making it difficult for others to see the silent suffering beneath the surface. And they probably are not getting the opportunity (little or none), to believe anything other that what the alienating parent is telling them. ⁠

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These negative beliefs, reinforced by lies and the alienation tactics of triangulation (obstruction of contact and divide-and-rule), become ingrained. The toxic parent, now playing the roles of victim and hero, often becomes the child’s closest confidant.

In coping with this turmoil, the child may resort to psychological ‘splitting,’ using their anger and hurt feelings as justification for rejecting

the other parent. They adopt the thoughts, beliefs, and behaviours of the toxic parent, believing they have consciously chosen this alignment without external influence. They think it is entirely their decision to turn their back on the other parent. However, what they receive from their aligned parent is not love; it is manipulation. The alienating parent seeks to use the child as a weapon to inflict the maximum emotional pain on the other parent, removing the beloved child from that parent’s life in the most dramatic way possible.

My posts are here not to alarm or upset but to spread awareness about what’s known as ‘parental alienation’ and to provide guidance to those who are going through it, as I did myself. Apart from these daily posts, which I hope help you know you’re not alone, and to better understand it’s an attachment disorder, a pathology, it’s not you; please reach out if I can help with the coaching I offer.

#charliemccready

#parentalalienationcoach

#abuseinthefamily

#pathogenicparent

Abusive partners know what they are doing

The world will tell you that your partner, who is abusive physically and emotionally, who is unfaithful and inconsistent, is dealing with childhood trauma. Their parents didn’t love them correctly.

Their exes hurt them. They’re dealing with deep issues.

It’s not intentional but unconscious. You should wait for them to be talked to, counselled, and so forth.

You should stick it out for the children. Do not break your marriage.

Your partner knows what they’re doing, and that’s why they usually do it when there are no witnesses.

Their anger is a strategy because they never lose their temper in front of other people. Just behind closed doors.

They abuse you for some very sweet reasons, which were listed by one Chuck Derry in this manner.

Derry runs the Gender Violence Institute, and he gathered this information from holding group discussions with abusive partners.

They said it gives them full control over the relationship and their partner. They get to make all decisions and have their partners do their bidding without asking questions.

If you intimidate him or her, they submit and do what you say.

You get their money, their service, their body, all for free. You don’t have to hang out with them or spend time loving them.

You can just disappear and come home whenever you want. They will be at your service and clean up after you.

If you’re generous and kind to everyone else, they will help you convince him or her that they must be the problem. Nobody sees you that way, and so they must be the ones triggering that side of you.

You can win the children to be on your side and isolate this person from their friends so they don’t confront you or strengthen your partner against you.

You can get them to quit their job or get into huge debts so that they’re all the more at your mercy.

This is a game of power.

You can make him or her too ashamed or tired of asking for help, and they surrender to you.

If you dangle the hope of a good future, you can get them making excuses for you and covering your history of violence.

In short, abuse is the ultimate massage to a bloated ego and a weak person.

It gives them a human robot, a live-in nurse and cook, a submissive servant, a punching bag and outlet for all their rage, a dumping site for all their frustrations.

And what do abusers fear most? What could make them stop? These three things they dread, and for them, they’ll change immediately or run away: getting exposed or arrested, breakup or divorce, and their children learning the truth, thereby alienating them.

Your solution is two-fold. Stop thinking your abuser is a victim. They’re strategic with everything, including the drinking, the explosive rage, the late nights, the silent treatments, the affairs.

Everything is strategic. Stop getting emotional with someone who is playing games with your life.

Secondly, leave and talk.

Break away and refuse any reconciliation meetings with relatives and friends.

Your partner’s worst fear is you leaving and telling the world the truth. So they’ll bribe, lobby, mobilize, and do anything to get people pressuring you to stay and be silent.

They’ll start fake therapy, get prayed over, and even plan a wedding.

All these are gimmicks. And even if they stopped the violent abuse, they can never rise to treasuring you. The best you can get is a peaceful but loveless existence. What’s the point? You can get that and better by yourself.

As for the marriage, they broke it themselves with their abuse and mistreatment. You didn’t.

About the children, they will ultimately benefit from you standing up for yourself and giving them the chance to see the truth and choose a better lifestyle than their diabolical parent.

(©️ Benjamin Zulu Global)