Songbird – Eva Cassidy

She stilled her beautiful life , and having there , once in such pain after being raped , my 1st experience … 6 Darvon , my Mom came in from work, early am, discovered what I’d done , and felt I’d be ok. Walking away , she said ” Donna , NO man is worth that …and there’s always another man.

The ONLY time , I attempted to take my life .

A medically induced,

attempted suicide by prescribed drugs…

I have been low, so extremely low , again when drugged , and there was no life line to get out of the darkness.it indeed was Hell on Earth , which prepared me to survive the abuses that intensified within my COVID eviction, and acknowledging the past would nip at my heels , draining me ,mu til I grey rocked it.

Done and Done

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7 Ways To Combat The Anger & Self-Neglect That Happens During A Family Crisis | Dr. Katherine Agranovich | YourTango

The stress of handling crises can accumulate to unhealthy levels very quickly, particularly for those who accept the role of family caregiver. However, a few easy stress hacks will make the crisis more manageable, like delegating tasks, having boundaries, practicing stress management, and staying in the moment.
— Read on www.yourtango.com/self/how-combat-anger-self-neglect-during-family-crisis

This Former Child Welfare Investigator Says Family Policing Must Be Abolished | Truthout

Alan J. Dettlaff once worked for Child Protective Services. What he saw made him realize the system should be abolished.
— Read on truthout.org/articles/this-former-child-welfare-investigator-says-family-policing-must-be-abolished/

Words are Events

Words Are Events

Speech, the most specifically human sound, and the most significant kind of sound, is never just scenery, it’s always event.

The voice creates a sphere around it, which includes all its hearers: an intimate sphere or area, limited in both space and time…

Sound is dynamic. Speech is dynamic — it is action. To act is to take power, to have power, to be powerful. Mutual communication between speakers and listeners is a powerful act. The power of each speaker is amplified, augmented, by the entrainment of the listeners…

This is why utterance is magic. Words do have power. Names have power. Words are events, they do things, change things. They transform both speaker and hearer; they feed energy back and forth and amplify it. They feed understanding or emotion back and forth and amplify it.

– Ursula LeGuin,

“Telling Is Listening” in The Wave in the Mind: Talks and Essays on the Writer, the Reader, and the Imagination (Boston: Shambhala, 2004)

Emotional Neglect and Highly Sensitive People

I grew up in a house that had no one who knew my sensitive nature and I was teased and made uncomfortable .. younger brother I suspect was also, but he has never been introspective , nor forgiving of being treated with out regard to his sensitivity .

Youngest definitely is and always was , and was very kind , sweet and giving .

Our sons had sensitivities, but were not allowed to be sensitive as most boys from toddler on are to be a ” man ” , that tears are a bad thing .. I had a lot of forgiving of self to do over being a part of the problem, It seemed like someone in family or friends always needed something very basic and little time was left to deeply think through the deep .. that is until I tried to sleep.

All of these things rose for review as I woke to my fate of death if I continued the psychiatric drugs prescribed for was Malignant, Intimate Partner Violence

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Daily Log of Chemtrail Spray Events: Log #34: October 2023 – Global Skywatch – Geoengineering/Chemtrails

Daily Log of Chemtrail Spray Events: Log #34: October 2023 – Global Skywatch – Geoengineering/Chemtrails
— Read on globalskywatch.com/chemtrails/ubbthreads.php