Mother

”As you remember you are a
Daughter of the Cosmic Mother.
Daughter of the As Above, So Below
who aspires to the heights and
plunges the depths as She
walks between the worlds.

So, scream like the Banshee
and keen over the bones.
Light the fires of ritual
and offer prayers to the
Ancient and Future ones.

Though the world may change and,
perhaps, not in the way you desire
while grief and trauma shift and morph,
you will survive and even prosper
IF you remember who you are
and the power you hold.
Remember…

She who is the Great Mother Goddess,
Warrioress and Ancestor and more.
She who is Ancient Bone Woman
and She who is yet to be re-born.

Remember…

She who will always hold and inform you.

Remember…

You are you own Way-Shower and need
only look for the place of the next light.

Remember.
Remember.
Remember.

Excerpt from The Place of the Next Light by Arlene Bailey, ©2020, 2021 featured in Re-Membering with Goddess: Healing the Patriarchal Perpetuation of Trauma

Art: Prayers for the Tween Time by Arlene Bailey

Father of Her Children Died – Jab

“The father of my children died.

Dropped dead.

In front of them.

At 2 and 6 years old they lost their daddy. Traumatically. They will live almost their entire lives without one of two people who loved them most. Without one of two people every kid deserves to grow up with.

Brandon’s death shook our community. Continues to shake it. It’s about to rumble it more.

I have been very open about every aspect of it. From posting 12 hours after his death, to continuing to share our story, and all aspects of my journey through grief. You, the community, have encouraged everything about this. This will be the biggest thing I share. Listen closely.

Brandon died of Lymphohistiocitic myocarditis.

This was determined by the Ontario Coroner’s Office at Kingston General Hospital. Because of the absolute shock of a healthy, active 34-year-old man dropping dead, his body was sent to Kingston for a full and extensive autopsy. The results can take several months, and I have just recently received the full report (which had to be formally requested).

When they eventually gave the cause of death, it shocked both the local coroner and our family doctor. It was assumed he died of a cardiomyopathy — a genetic condition that he would have been born with and gone undiagnosed. This was not the case.

Lymphohistiocitic myocarditis is caused by a virus. His heart was extensively damaged. There was so much scar tissue, that it literally couldn’t pump another beat. I had no chance at reviving him. The official report states that his entire heart was damaged — not one ventricle or one area — top to bottom damaged. Fully attacked, for multiple months.

Brandon did not have covid. His work supplied rapid tests and we had done several throughout summer and fall. The virus that killed him was likely the mRNA vaccine.

Any medical professional I have spoken to and who has looked into this further has been quick to disregard the vaccine as the cause, as “the research” shows myocarditis cases only happening within two weeks of an administered dose. First off, what research? We ARE the fucking research. Secondly, this is only what they are allowing to be reported.

Until November 5, I was a sheep. I fully admit that. Brandon and I both believed strongly in the vaccine and would roll our eyes at protestors, conspiracy theorists and all the “anti-vax” posts on social media. November 5th onward, my eyes have been opened.

I owe this to Brandon. To share what I believe killed him. What did kill him. What left his daughters without their daddy. To open all of your eyes. To allow yourselves to see things from another perspective. To think thoroughly before deciding to vaccinate your children, or get yourself boosted. I cannot in good conscience allow schools to bring in vaccine clinics and stay silent.

I believe in science. I absolutely love and respect medicine. I will never, ever, vaccinate my children (or myself further) against Covid-19. We know nothing about the long term effects of this vaccine. Nothing. If you think you do, you don’t.

Please respect my energy on this. I have turned comments off. I will not reply to direct messages. If you see me in person I am happy to chat about it. Internet wars will never be my thing. But I feel deeply about sharing this – this isn’t something that should ever be kept quiet.

For all of you preaching to vaccinate children, please put yourselves in my shoes, and then kindly be sensitive about what you say.

Fight for your children and their rights. I’ll be fighting for mine.

We never got a chance to fight for Brandon. 💔”

— Chantelle Watt

@chantellewattphoto

Child support

Every state in the country has a child support enforcement agency. No where in the country will you find a visitation enforcement agency! The reason? For Every dollar the court collects in child support arrears they get a dollar. So for the 25,000 that I was in arrears for, that I paid, the court got 25,000! The court didn’t get any money when I visited my daughter. Family law needs to be abolished!

1st Son & I ; a Gift from Divine

My belief was chipped away until 2008..”friendship never was :WAR Within

Too many beautiful, loving folks believe they and the narcissist are soul mates or twin flames. They believe the narcissist is simply fulfilling the “runner” dynamic and will ‘come to their senses’ and return to the relationship sooner or later.⁣⁠
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And they will wait YEARS for this to happen, enduring untold, horrific abuse.⁣⁠
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Please understand that a soul mate will not betray you, stab you in the back, tell you pathological lies, or make it their duty to cause you to feel unworthy of their love. Only sadistic manipulators do that.⁣⁠
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Many writers and content creators are romanticizing emotional abuse and calling it ‘spiritual lessons’ and ‘evolution’.⁣⁠
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This is one of the worst forms of gaslighting.⁣⁠
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The truth is, staying in a relationship with an individual who emotionally abuses you and repeatedly breaks their promises can cause crippling levels of chronic depression due to repeated emotional traumas, the nature of which is made worse by the limiting beliefs we form in response to the narcissist’s degrading verbal assaults.⁣⁠
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Even more alarming, repeated emotional injuries shrink the brain’s hippocampus, which is responsible for memory and learning, while enlarging the amygdala, which houses primitive emotions such as fear, grief, guilt, envy, and shame.⁣⁠

In short, you habitually become hijacked by your freeze response, unable to form rational thoughts or reactions. Over time, this becomes your baseline state of being. It’s a cycle of emotional destruction of the most grievous kind.⁣⁠
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⁣⁠I cannot recommend enough to stop romanticizing abuse and stop self-abandoning.

The Modules of THRIVE are dedicated to helping you evolve into a healed version of yourself so you can say “NO” to continued abuse.

And you will be restored in more incredible ways than you ever believed possible.

Learn more about THRIVE here: https://bit.ly/331a4j7

Much love xo

Kim

Watch “All We Are Saying is Give Peace a Chance (lyrics) – John Lennon” on YouTube

I realized my ” super power ” is my vulnerable state

and how deeply I bond with those “different ” folks

and deeply whom I share my ” super power”

while transversing humanity …

The massive labeling of our children , then races ,

women and children.

As the daughter of a compliant LPN who popped

those magic pills of pharmaceutical death , which

cost her her life after 5 years of agony , followed by

her 1st born daughter’s horrific death . Neither

necessary , and I have learned both Grandmothers died

with Valium addiction , depleting their strength,

physically , emotionally and spiritually .

I had the awareness magnified, of the drain and possible

demise resulting of holding emotions in, of non

communication, of not healing trauma ..of course not

knowing the term trauma , as a child , but certainly

holding my own , and being a problem child .

No one , NO one acknowledged my oral rape in

family but Dad. At a time when their marriage had

taken a huge nose dive , both had affairs , after a time

reuniting , ignoring the devastation showing up

in ” adverse” behaviors.

I was very nervous internally, chewing the inside of

my mouth down to popping out a nerve . In addition

to poor nutrition , lack of instruction in a home

of no structure, I hid in my room for privacy and to

avoid being put to work..or watching behaviors I

found uncomfortable .

No peace , no privacy , no space inside I was in my

room or outside or at a friend’s.

I note that in council as well, the deepest hurt , the

hardest to look at , our fractured families, shadow

and light , that ultimately demands strong boundaries

which comes with self worth as one takes charge

and ” mothers ” oneself as the mother longed for ..

I fill that spot for some , even if for that one talk .

As well as adults , after 4 hours of talking to a very

intelligent, single man, he said he has no one to talk

to that has the info I have ..I gave him my card but

I have not heard from him.

I am aquetely aware that indivually peace with in

and peace within our homes is vital to our planet .

It is as vital to Mother Earth 🌎 ❤.

A shift is occurring and I am very happy to be

acknowledged as such , as I conclude business , legal

left undone and in shambles, many unpleasant truths

await , as I take it day by day , every effort to solidify

my foundation and thus leave some legacy and honor

for our family with facts that helped healed me …

Our children seek mentors , wisdoms , acceptance

and our truths are vital in being heard , we have hope

and faith to begin to release old hurts , often stepping

out of the family dynamic that does not resonate

until we gain strength in all ways required.

It was vital to my recovery, and thus to be there for Dad

as well as our sons who still reject me…I understand

but again , my awareness of how vital this is , has

brought me to this point , of surrender to Thy Will

allowing all to flow ..

I am striving for every ounce of strength to set up my

office as 3 months later , much has delayed my ability

to get my things in storage.., As a result I am depleted

and in constant need of rest . However , I am Blessed

indeed to have helpers , angels without wings , from

Landlord to my 2 bestest 💖, who treat me very well.

Its a very healthy , intelligent exchange full of respect

and love and we ” glow ” hours into working together

we know peace , and union ..

Peace with in , the mutual exchange of love and respect

without one bit of negatives , is a Blessing .

This , along with many more over the years , as long

as I can remember , I have had awareness that I totally

accept , and I accept that some don’t hear me and I don’t

matter , but I cannot allow that energy to defeat me .

I have dental issues , gut issues , that I am determined

to heal, and so I discern better ….Peace within and

without as our children require and deserve is

impartive.

All that should be is returned to you , as I am learning

each and every day .

We return to ourselves, and its not always possible

to hold old energies that have nothing to support you .

Its scary , and holds much power, liberated to be…who

we are , who we are meant to be ..escaping the eternal

box or shroud of families who desire us to hold trauma

in fear of change .

Light attracts light , and shadow test us , in our efforts

to reach for more light, calm and peace .

Blessings & Peace ,

Dona Luna