I realized my ” super power ” is my vulnerable state
and how deeply I bond with those “different ” folks
and deeply whom I share my ” super power”
while transversing humanity …
The massive labeling of our children , then races ,
women and children.
As the daughter of a compliant LPN who popped
those magic pills of pharmaceutical death , which
cost her her life after 5 years of agony , followed by
her 1st born daughter’s horrific death . Neither
necessary , and I have learned both Grandmothers died
with Valium addiction , depleting their strength,
physically , emotionally and spiritually .
I had the awareness magnified, of the drain and possible
demise resulting of holding emotions in, of non
communication, of not healing trauma ..of course not
knowing the term trauma , as a child , but certainly
holding my own , and being a problem child .
No one , NO one acknowledged my oral rape in
family but Dad. At a time when their marriage had
taken a huge nose dive , both had affairs , after a time
reuniting , ignoring the devastation showing up
in ” adverse” behaviors.
I was very nervous internally, chewing the inside of
my mouth down to popping out a nerve . In addition
to poor nutrition , lack of instruction in a home
of no structure, I hid in my room for privacy and to
avoid being put to work..or watching behaviors I
found uncomfortable .
No peace , no privacy , no space inside I was in my
room or outside or at a friend’s.
I note that in council as well, the deepest hurt , the
hardest to look at , our fractured families, shadow
and light , that ultimately demands strong boundaries
which comes with self worth as one takes charge
and ” mothers ” oneself as the mother longed for ..
I fill that spot for some , even if for that one talk .
As well as adults , after 4 hours of talking to a very
intelligent, single man, he said he has no one to talk
to that has the info I have ..I gave him my card but
I have not heard from him.
I am aquetely aware that indivually peace with in
and peace within our homes is vital to our planet .
It is as vital to Mother Earth 🌎 ❤.
A shift is occurring and I am very happy to be
acknowledged as such , as I conclude business , legal
left undone and in shambles, many unpleasant truths
await , as I take it day by day , every effort to solidify
my foundation and thus leave some legacy and honor
for our family with facts that helped healed me …
Our children seek mentors , wisdoms , acceptance
and our truths are vital in being heard , we have hope
and faith to begin to release old hurts , often stepping
out of the family dynamic that does not resonate
until we gain strength in all ways required.
It was vital to my recovery, and thus to be there for Dad
as well as our sons who still reject me…I understand
but again , my awareness of how vital this is , has
brought me to this point , of surrender to Thy Will
allowing all to flow ..
I am striving for every ounce of strength to set up my
office as 3 months later , much has delayed my ability
to get my things in storage.., As a result I am depleted
and in constant need of rest . However , I am Blessed
indeed to have helpers , angels without wings , from
Landlord to my 2 bestest 💖, who treat me very well.
Its a very healthy , intelligent exchange full of respect
and love and we ” glow ” hours into working together
we know peace , and union ..
Peace with in , the mutual exchange of love and respect
without one bit of negatives , is a Blessing .
This , along with many more over the years , as long
as I can remember , I have had awareness that I totally
accept , and I accept that some don’t hear me and I don’t
matter , but I cannot allow that energy to defeat me .
I have dental issues , gut issues , that I am determined
to heal, and so I discern better ….Peace within and
without as our children require and deserve is
All that should be is returned to you , as I am learning
each and every day .
We return to ourselves, and its not always possible
to hold old energies that have nothing to support you .
Its scary , and holds much power, liberated to be…who
we are , who we are meant to be ..escaping the eternal
box or shroud of families who desire us to hold trauma
in fear of change .
Light attracts light , and shadow test us , in our efforts
to reach for more light, calm and peace .
Blessings & Peace ,