January :Survived & Surrender

Yesterday I was driven to the surgeons office for removal of 10 staples . I waited too long in the examination room in a wheel chair unable to do anything but wait .

I asked questions and received a copy of the pathology report . An abscess in my colon had become involved in my appendix and of the lymph nodes 14 were removed and 1 had cancer ! As he spoke I realized the intuitive thoughts I had considered were fact . This mess took a while to manifest and my diagnosis of IBS and Leaky gut were incorrect as was the following ;

In 2016, a couple I rented from came over to discuss replacing the 60’s model stove and listen to my ideas of removing a cabinet above the stove and add a microwave both owned by me .

They assured me they were not selling the house nor raising the rent that day and left only to return unannounced and unexpected to inspect their new stove and I was not feeling well and did not let them in.

They had discussing signing a lease then didn’t produce one and offered that I should write one up myself. That was not an option for me and though I loved the house it required 50k worth of work and was indeed sinking .

A few days later I came home to find a 30 day eviction notice on my front door . My blood pressure shot up and on the advice of my acupuncturist and against my better judgement I saw a local nurse practitioner. I waited over an hour to see her and again my blood pressure was up . She drew blood and wrote a prescription for Lisinopril an older blood pressure medication that was originally made from snake venom. Imagine the man made chemicals created to make this RX . I had an adverse reaction which included feeling like I had aged 30 years and a year in my colon that cost me a quart of blood 🩸! I quit the RC and never returned to that medical office again.

The tear never healed properly and my poo just detoured around the unhealed area but I did have lots of issues with my gut and elimination process for the past 6 years .

It was this mass that finally accessed and with appendix involvement and a severe UTI I called the Rescue Squad and wrapped in a bed sheet clutching my phone and wallet arrived at the ER .

Exploratory surgery revealed this mess and removal of the 14 lymph nodes 1 being cancerous , part of my colon and my appendix were removed .

I am in a rehab facility at present with weakness in rising from a sitting position and of course seldom receiving the nutritional benefit I dearly need and I plan to write more on the rehab experience.

At the Dr visit the incision was looking snarly to me but still draining slightly and Dr sent me back with a colloidal silver material to have my nurse place just inside the incision which made me feel much better !

I am to return the 21st and have a phone conference with my Dr who is 2 hours away and we will establish a protocol towards my treatment . My younger sister has agreed to drive me and so I am surrendered to the Divine intervention and the experience of being in the AMA matrix after 20 years and the beautiful healing angels I have met and bonded with since my arrival .

I have survived the curve balls hurtled at me this Jan and welcome my birth month as reclamation of my personhood and my return to healthier living and safe living without threat or stressors.

I am indeed humbled and blessed ❤️😘💯

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

Express Yourself 2023

“The Undoing”

The Keepers of the Records, through Valerie Kashouty Sargent

Even though 2023 has only just begun, you are well on your way energetically. You have already moved through some rather intense solar flares, 2 energetic portals, and currently there is a very strong forward momentum that may make it feel as if things are moving very fast. Many things are occurring now that your conscious awareness is recognizing.

The illusion that time is speeding up is only an illusion if you are still thinking of time as something that is a constant. The truth is that you are much more aware of your multidimensionality now. The feeling that time is moving faster is real in that you are existing in all of your timelines at once and your conscious awareness is expanding to recognize this.

You are feeling things very deeply now because your expanding consciousness is responding to experiences in other timelines. You may not remember or have the conscious awareness of an experience in another timeline, but your soul does, and at some level, your heart (and in some cases, even your mind) recognizes the energy of that experience, so you may feel a deep emotional response to a seemingly small trigger.

Your sleep cycles may be disrupted, and you may be dreaming more, or more vividly. This is another aspect of your ever expanding awareness, bringing greater detail of other existences to your consciousness.

It is so fascinating!

There is no slowing down now, and that is exactly how you chose it to be.

As your consciousness and therefore your awareness is expanding, you are also recognizing patterns, beliefs and deep programming that no longer serve you. The intense light and energy that you are receiving vibrates loose the deeply embedded programming that is in your DNA which allows for the re-pairing of your DNA. There is nothing to be fixed; your DNA is being re-paired with your Source consciousness, and in this process, the old programming sloughs off like old skin. Seems simple enough, yet the old programming is deeply ingrained in your cellular memory and in your energy field, and anything that deeply embedded can often be painful to extract.

So you are feeling the effects of lifetimes of societal and cultural programming being shaken loose from the very core of you.

Acceptance of this process and kindness and compassion for yourselves and each other are what will help you the most.

Acceptance is a major aspect of Grace. Without it, you cannot truly heal, you cannot truly be free. Without acceptance you are always judging yourself, and when you are judging yourself you will always come up short. Being human is about being unique and having experiences. If you were all exactly alike, there would be no growth, and it would radically reduce the experiences you would have. You’ve already experienced that as Source. You have been and encompassed All That Is, so you chose to experience being something different.

You are simply finding your way back now. And again, you chose to do this.

The undoing of societal and cultural programming is what you are moving through in earnest now. The old programs are not bad, they are the experiences that you, as individuals and as a collective consciousness have chosen to be free of now. They no longer serve your expanding awareness of Who You Are so you are in the process of undoing them.

There are many who judge them as bad or corrupt, but as you move through this process it is important for you to remember that your perception of everything is what is showing up as your reality. So you can judge old programming is bad, or you can simply be grateful as you move forward, that you are releasing it.

Your vibration is yours to monitor and control. No one else can do that for you, nor would you want them to. Part of the old programming involves the belief that others in your life and in your world dictate how you feel.

Remember that you have superpowers: Your ability to choose how you feel in any moment, and being in the feeling nature of any aspect of Grace: Acceptance, peace, compassion, love, gratitude, joy, etc.

Your superpower changes your life.

Changing your life affects those around you.

That affects your circle of influence.

Your circle of influence is much greater than you know.

That is how you contribute to the shift in consciousness.

February is a month of undoing deep programming. You chose to move through the process of awakening, or enlightenment in this way: Coming to earth as human, and moving through a timeline of awakening, until you leave this physical incarnation. There will always be an integration and healing process for as long as you are in this body, and it does get easier as you continue to awaken, or enlighten. You are receiving light that affects the cellular structure of your body and your DNA, so you are indeed becoming enlightened. The awakening is the process of waking from the amnesia of not remembering Who and What You Are.

The joy and the excitement of it is in the journey, the process of re-membering, so if you are able to recognize that truth, choose to shift your perception from pain and suffering to excitement, gratitude and even joy. It behooves you to do so, and in choosing the higher vibrational feeling, you are inviting those around you to do the same.

That is how you contribute to the enlightenment of the world.

We see you for Who You Are and invite you to always see yourselves as that.

https://thefigleaf.net/journal-2/

Shadow to Light

To think that enlightenment only comes through wonderful experiences is to delude yourself. Yes, there are those cases when someone has a spontaneous awakening, and he or she doesn’t have a lot of karmic tendencies to see through. But that is rare.

For most of us, the path to enlightenment is not rosy. We need to acknowledge this, because otherwise we’re only going to let ourselves travel toward that which feels good, that which supports our image of what the path of awakening should be. For most people, the path of awakening does have wonderful, profound moments and realizations. But it is also a gritty thing. Its not what most people sign up for when they say they want to be enlightened.

The truth of the matter is that most people who say they want awakening don’t actually want to awaken.

They want their version of awakening. What they actually want it to be really happy in their dream state. And that’s okay, if that’s as far as they’ve evolved…

But the real, sincere impulse toward enlightenment is something that goes far beyond the desire to make our dream state better. It is an impulse that is willing to subject itself to whatever is needed in order to wake up. The authentic impulse toward enlightenment is that internal prayer asking for whatever it is that will bring us to a full awakening, regardless of whether it turns out to be wonderful or terrible.

– Adyashanti

Challenges towards Growth – Kim Saeed

I don’t know who needs to see this, but when you leave an abusive relationship or marriage, this isn’t the only challenge you will face. Once you’ve removed yourself from the vortex of lies and manipulation, you may begin to lose friends and family, as well. Your Church might turn on you. Relationships and situations will fall apart around your ankles.

While this is initially horrific and traumatizing, it’s actually a Phoenix process. You are leaving the realm of false narratives and denial. You are removing yourself from the program. The people and situations that hurt you will have no choice but to slowly disintegrate as you make space for your new world.

This phase may take a while, especially if you have to deal with court hearings. This is usually an entire layer of H*LL in itself.

Think of it as an update to software. The bugs are removed so your internal code can go back to normal. The software is your life, and the bugs are all the things that aren’t in alignment with your highest good.

Once this painful phase begins to acclimate, a quiet peace sets upon you. You are no longer surrounded by abusers, fakes, and ignorance. You are no longer amongst flying monkeys, minions, or fair-weathered “friends” who used to go between you and your abuser, stirring the pot. They may try, but your new reality doesn’t acknowledge them. Ideally, you’ve blocked these people out of your life so that any attempts they make to hook you back into the vortex are met with your indifference or even utter unawareness.

Your tolerance for drama and backbiting is zero. You no longer care what the ignorant are up to.

Things worth doing, things that will transform your life… may feel painful while your new world is being built. This is when you need faith in yourself. Faith in what’s in store. Faith in our Creator. This is when you need to stop looking back and, instead, put all your focus on forging your new path.

I’ve gone through many painful Phoenix processes…but what comes afterward is always worth it. Every. Single. Time.

Surgery

The exploratory surgery while I had a very bad UTI and ruptured appendix procedure has me weak but able to use the urnial to the amazement of my aids ; I’m damn good at it .

Slicing and dicing my bowels is painful and I’ve not had anything for pain since arrival at Rehab which is cruel. It’s affecting my sleep and I plan to resolve it

I have weakness in my legs which others are reporting as well and have plans to do energy work as well as supplements to correct .

I’m working on increasing my insurance coverage asap which I’ve tried to do for several years

When I woke from matrix of bipolar mental illness and learned that my cobra serve was running out , my fears of a catastrophic illness or disease would challenge me .

I tried unsuccessfully to get insurance , all took my deposit and a few payments , received a pre approved medical bill and threw me out. One company didn’t even cover the state of Virginia and I found this out 3 months after waiting for an appointment with a specialist , who told me upon arrival for said appointment that ” I’m not taking new patients” !

After buying my last house and in legal battles with ex , I signed on with Anthem Blue Shield with poor credit was $3000 deposit just to sign up

My Bipolar diagnosis still in play the policy would be $1000 per month , and I had a new $1000 house payment It was very scary and when I received a bill for $3000 2 weeks after signing up ; I quit that matrix

The coverage at $1000 per month did not cover glasses or dental !

Blue Cross/ Anthem did not refund my $3000 deposit and my futile efforts to have that money returned has met nothing but dead ends .

I’m in awe of the mostly women who have cared for me and their dedication and compassion are inspiring.

They do release our current medical model is in dire need of improvement, better pay and work conditions. I have deep gratitude and respect and share my experience and cutting edge quantum healing which they seem interested in .

Teacher/Student the beat goes on and I’m aware of the lessons I’m learning and light I’m receiving and dispersing.

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna😘❤️🥰

Me

I have been her

I have been she

I have been them

And now I’m me.

I have been out

And I’ve been in

I’ve felt defeat

I’ve known the win.

I have held joy

and shouldered grief

I’ve had my share

Of changed beliefs.

I have been hurt

and I’ve been high

I heard the answers

to what and to why.

I know the loss

and I know the gain

I know that we

all bleed the same.

I have been her

I have been she

I have been them

And now I’m me.

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Spirituality

Tested time after time , my surgery and recovery are yet one more hurtle .

I’m better but have a ways to go and my faith and determination are solid .

Magical people assist me and come into my life wherever I am and I’m gratified

What falls away is supposed to to make space for what’s in my best interests now.

I used to worry what did I have to offer , what was my worth and how could I best serve ? After years of being targeted by distortions to protect unspeakable abuses , I had to learn again I am love and I bring love and not everyone has the eyes to see and the heart to accept me ❤️

This surgery has brought me to a place of comfort and peace and patience because of the very special and unique earth angels that are at the ready to stand beside me and support me and that’s beautiful; money cannot buy happiness or these bonds that are of value beyond that I have known in the past . With the exception of the Heaven on Earth I knew as a young Mom I have never known that love ; the sweetest ever and that challenges the distorted , greedy and controlling.

I know I’ll be on my own and that’s ok until the man shows up that has a hand for my back and no knives to harm me . It’s hardly a consideration now as I fight to regain my physical strength and return to my room and seek my home 🏡

Medical treatment this time around has twice opened the door to psychiatry which I politely slam shut just as I reject the common offer of chemo for 1 cancerous polyp.

# I Got This