January :Survived & Surrender

Yesterday I was driven to the surgeons office for removal of 10 staples . I waited too long in the examination room in a wheel chair unable to do anything but wait .

I asked questions and received a copy of the pathology report . An abscess in my colon had become involved in my appendix and of the lymph nodes 14 were removed and 1 had cancer ! As he spoke I realized the intuitive thoughts I had considered were fact . This mess took a while to manifest and my diagnosis of IBS and Leaky gut were incorrect as was the following ;

In 2016, a couple I rented from came over to discuss replacing the 60’s model stove and listen to my ideas of removing a cabinet above the stove and add a microwave both owned by me .

They assured me they were not selling the house nor raising the rent that day and left only to return unannounced and unexpected to inspect their new stove and I was not feeling well and did not let them in.

They had discussing signing a lease then didn’t produce one and offered that I should write one up myself. That was not an option for me and though I loved the house it required 50k worth of work and was indeed sinking .

A few days later I came home to find a 30 day eviction notice on my front door . My blood pressure shot up and on the advice of my acupuncturist and against my better judgement I saw a local nurse practitioner. I waited over an hour to see her and again my blood pressure was up . She drew blood and wrote a prescription for Lisinopril an older blood pressure medication that was originally made from snake venom. Imagine the man made chemicals created to make this RX . I had an adverse reaction which included feeling like I had aged 30 years and a year in my colon that cost me a quart of blood 🩸! I quit the RC and never returned to that medical office again.

The tear never healed properly and my poo just detoured around the unhealed area but I did have lots of issues with my gut and elimination process for the past 6 years .

It was this mass that finally accessed and with appendix involvement and a severe UTI I called the Rescue Squad and wrapped in a bed sheet clutching my phone and wallet arrived at the ER .

Exploratory surgery revealed this mess and removal of the 14 lymph nodes 1 being cancerous , part of my colon and my appendix were removed .

I am in a rehab facility at present with weakness in rising from a sitting position and of course seldom receiving the nutritional benefit I dearly need and I plan to write more on the rehab experience.

At the Dr visit the incision was looking snarly to me but still draining slightly and Dr sent me back with a colloidal silver material to have my nurse place just inside the incision which made me feel much better !

I am to return the 21st and have a phone conference with my Dr who is 2 hours away and we will establish a protocol towards my treatment . My younger sister has agreed to drive me and so I am surrendered to the Divine intervention and the experience of being in the AMA matrix after 20 years and the beautiful healing angels I have met and bonded with since my arrival .

I have survived the curve balls hurtled at me this Jan and welcome my birth month as reclamation of my personhood and my return to healthier living and safe living without threat or stressors.

I am indeed humbled and blessed ❤️😘💯

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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