Dixie Chick’s: Traveling Soldier

This song Traveling Soldier came to mind as I considered all the veterans, of many wars ..wars of the soul and spirit

My 1st boyfriend became my 1st husband and brought much shame into our union .

My brother , perhaps my whole family at that time knew of his shadow but kept secrets of his infidelity .

After 9 months of trauma and abuse ( he was working out of town 4 nights a week ); he was drafted .

He left me with orders .

And his 65 cherry 🍒 red GTO.

I rebelled against his abuse and unknown secrets that had a very negative energy to them .I was sensitive to these unknowns but unaware of my intuition . Of course I had faith but was overwhelmed at being treated like a possession .

I don’t recall any discussions or plans for the future .

I wed due the loss of my virginity ..

And it was over , he filed for divorce , took emergency leave and took possession of his car .

I had nothing to say except that I was too young to be married .

Charged with abandonment …

Then

Marriage to a man who for 4plus decades has held his trauma , puking it out on others , making others responsible .

At the sale of the family business he began to travel or claimed to.

In high trauma made worse by psychiatric drugs , I needed him . Our eldest drove me to various motels in the area . He was not at any of them but it certainly was an education of his habits unknown to me

Runner

Ghosted

A guest or drop in …

His secrets , his war, his lies and his projected blame and shame are his and his alone .

There are all kinds of soldiers, veterans, and survivors and very long and crooked the long and twisted journey to leave that war , to loose children and grandchildren to such distortion.

To discover , it’s money power motivated , the ever pressing need to WIN against and release of a past that did much destruction and cannot exist in the consciousness and awareness of the existence of abuses that harm children by erasing a parent .

Blessings 💚 🙌 Peace ✌ 🙏 ❤

Dona Luna

The Woman Who Has Herself

The Woman who has Herself

When a woman has herself
you can enter or leave her life
you can flatter or judge her
and she, she will receive or say goodbye to you kindly
and she will thank you and understand your shadows
because she already knows hers.
You probably won’t tolerate it and at the same time
you want to own it and you will end up walking away
from her if you don’t have the courage to respect her.
When a woman has herself
the Universe Dances at her feet, and She rises.
She becomes compassionate.
She chooses.
She is aware.
She gives and receives Love.
It is easy to recognize it.
The Woman Who Has Herself
she smiles in the sun as in the storm.
She celebrates life and understands death.
She lives and dances the processes.
She doesn’t have a hue, she’s a rainbow.

Author: Maria Harchanan Kaur

Artwork: Sophie Wilkins Arts

Awakening Women

When a woman awakens and starts to own all of herself, letting go of the need to cover up or defend herself and instead accepts all of her idiosyncrasies, fears, wounds, false programs, flaws, icky moods, fat thighs, sweaty armpits etc and supports her unique imperfect self instead of judging, rejecting and wishing that she were different or like somebody else, she has entered the promised land of freedom and self empowerment.

She starts to drop the posing, defence mechanisms, competitiveness, jealousy and all the false gods that she previously used as crutches, false images or places to hide parts of herself… What is left is a Woman of Strength, courage, fortitude and a woman that is compassionately understanding towards others because she is able to give to others what she has given to herself… She becomes fearlessly authentic, she finds her Voice, there is no longer shame, therefore she no longer needs to hide or change any part of herself… She’s able to overcome any fears of rejection for being true to herself.

Ironically, when a woman claims and accepts her shadow, that which she rejected and suppressed about herself transforms from being dysfunctional to being a strength and the energy that it was previously draining from her becomes available to her. Such a woman gives others permission to accept themselves as they are, her own freedom becomes contagious.

Through being openly relaxed in her Power she empowers others.

Author : Caroline de Lisser

Artwork: Barbara Glatzeder

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I adore this song , it’s very descriptive of my life experience and I adore turning people on to new things…

So I enjoyed this man’s experience .

I shared this song , these words as a message of love too many years ago.

I screamed these words in a padded room , after electrodes had raised the ” mania” that resulted from the chemicals in my brain 🧠 Totally rearranged by trauma , not mental illness , abuse , not mental illness, chemicals that induced behaviors of trauma ..DSM has that down as a mental illness .A very Corporate choice , so many prescription drugs , so many billable codes .

Destroying the social structure of society …

It’s ending .

I claimed and climbed my mountain ..I remain true to my core goals and ideals though I’m learning new things , less shadow is involved and quickly dispersed.

My challenges of home and heart will be resolved .

I reached the summit, I am home . I am grateful 🙏 🥲 for all that got me here but miniscule trauma nor drama will be allowed .

I trust each individual to reach their summit as they wake to love and end the cycles of shadow challenges .

Peace Love and Blessings 🙌

Dona Luna ✌

Not everyone heals their trauma

Not everyone will heal in this lifetime.
It’s important that we accept and understand this.
The perpetual emphasis on acknowledging and healing trauma is a beautiful thing, but its not for everyone. Because some of us don’t have the capacity to heal. Some can’t even get out of bed, because of the weight of their pain and the complexity of their trauma.
Too much has happened, and there is no possibility of transformation. This is very hard to accept in our toxic positivity culture, one where trauma is the new buzz word and where people forget that they are not walking in someone’s else’s shoes. Just because you were able to heal parts of your past, doesn’t mean everyone can heal parts of theirs.
We have all lived in a trauma inducing culture.
Some of us didn’t make it through in one piece. That’s a fact. And if we can just accept this, and honor and comfort them as they are without any effort to ‘heal’ them, we actually stand a chance of co-creating the kind of trauma-sensitive world that avoids this level of suffering altogether. Because trauma is perpetuated by insensitivity. Our tendency to turn a blind eye to the truth of people’s suffering, to shame them for not healing, to blame it on their karma and their choices, is precisely the dissociative consciousness that perpetuates the trauma cycle. You want to help, but you just make it worse. Better to accept people right where they are. Better to provide comfort to the fallen ones. That alone will heal the world ..

an excerpt from ‘Hearticulations’ by Jeff Brown

Artist Lindy Longhurst