They took my kids from me and I was a good father. It didn’t make sense until I found out it’s all about the state making money.
Then 5 years later I found a video of court corruption against my court actors and sued the state of Missouri actors.
The judge dismissed it.
“Quasi judicial immunity.” That means it doesn’t matter they committed crimes against my children and I, they are immune from liability because they work for the state.
I adapted an attitude of “you didn’t kill me then you damn sure can’t kill me now.”
Went and found a gang of fathers, mothers, and kids that had been ran over by the same system as me and found out I’m not alone.
Then one day life got better. I started rebuilding. Bro I got a long way to go.
I figured if you wanted a voice against the corrupt system, I can be part of that voice.
Life continues to get better every day. I found a quiet voice that speaks up next to me. Rebuilt a family and started working to fix the relationships the state and a vindictive ex destroyed.
You did me a favor all those years ago and threw me in the trash. I found my people down here and we found our worth. We started to get really loud and built something. We ain’t done yet.
My life isn’t for everyone. It is where I was supposed to be. When you hit that point, nothing can hold you back.
Rest. We’ll help carry you until you can go again on your own.
Don’t ever quit on yourself.
We got stuff to do and things to change.
Love everyone of our fathers out there and the women that support them.
It’s been 7 long agonizing months since I’ve seen my daughter after our traumatic experience. Her court ordered therapist claims to be a kidnapping victim expert using psuedoscience polyvagal theory invented by Dr. Steven Porges. Isn’t that ironic? I was accused of kidnapping my daughter because I protected her, but Dad and the Family court are the real kidnappers, and this fake kidnapping expert is participating in it. So sick and twisted.
It completely mystifies me that my daughter’s therapist claims she can heal trauma by keeping my daughter away from her mother and not ask me for any information about the history of what she’s been through. Only believing the false narratives of Dad. How do I press back on this? Who holds this quack accountable? I have no belief complaints to the California owned Psych board will do anything. Something popped up on FB about Stephen Porges trauma recovery and this really pricked me.
This kind of stuff puts me out of my mind. I still don’t know what happened to my daughter when she was wrongfully locked up in a mental ward for not wanting to go with her dad. It seems to me the child I knew “died” that day that we were attacked, and this other version, the brainwashed child, is someone different. The heartbreak is unbearable.
When I try to imagine what it will be like to be re-united or see her again, at this stage of my own trauma, I won’t know who she is. They are messing with her head and memories of me. That part is so unbearable.
I had a talk with my pastor’s wife and argued with her that I can’t hold on and be expected to wait for my daughter to grow up and then reform our bonds. She yelled and screamed at me and I screamed back “you don’t understand what I feel”. And I told her, I have not seen or met a Mother who has survived this. I have not seen or met a Mother who can tell me what it was like to be reunited with their stolen child after so many years gone by.
Is anyone her able to comment on that?
My pastor’s wife told me that I would have to be the one to tell that story. This made me more angry with frustration. I want MY child back.
We are in now stepping into the Tidal Waves of transformation and transfiguration, as mass awakenings will now start occurring on unprecedented scales as never happened before. This is an inpouring of immense electromagnetic storm waves, and indeed, these are working directly with the Heart center of humanity, and indeed all creations on planet earth and directly through the Heart center of Mother Earth. We are now moving into a time of timelessness, where we are literally lifted beyond anything we have known before. We cannot step into the New Earth and the New Creation with the old thinking, old belief systems, the old structures and forms. They just will not work in the Higher dimensional state. We will need to forget all we ever thought we knew and now go deeper into our heart space, become as one with our souls, and the Divine within, and then follow the intuitive inner knowing and guidance, and act on this. Note every soul now needs to know that it needs to follow this inner knowing, as the heart center opens more and more, and not allow itself to be influence in any way by anyone else. Keep focused and disciplined on the immensely rapidly inner growth and inner expansion. Keep it simple. We are stepping not only into no time – but at the same time a New Creation, yet also the Unknown. It is not there in manifested form as we know it from the dense physicality of the Old Earth and Old 3D. We are stepping into the Unformed, the Form-less, yet within the seeming non-form, all existence lies. This is the reason why we need to go through transfiguration, and during this transfiguration, there is a phase, which is the non-phase. All dissolves into no-thing, no form, before the new emerges and forms and thus the new Light body and the New You. I am being shown the Sacred Heart. The Sacred Heart is sacred. It is a holy and sanctified space. When I did the opening of the Sacred Heart toning Webinar, a lot of those attending felt their heart center opening like never before, and then had tears. Not tears of woe, but of a deep releasing inside, and then stepping into a deep remembering of something they cannot voice, yet the soul recognizes. Indeed, what is recognized is the Core Heart of Unconditional Love, and Core state of the Soul Creation, which is pure innocence, yet embraces Omniversal Power. The Sacred Heart is indeed the Holies or Holies. It embraces immense Power, and indeed this Power connects to All-That-Is. As the tidal waves of change move in, and with it the bursting forth of new life, totally new existences in totally new and much higher frequency light bodies, we will be lifted more and more, and the only way we can allow this total transfiguration to occur is through the Sacred Heart center. We will start finding that we speak less. We use less words, especially words empty of feeling and meaning. For when one enters the space of the Sacred Heart, words fail. One starts communicating at a much higher Cosmic Level, where one communicates wordlessly, heart to heart, soul to soul, and this is the silent language of vibrations and frequencies, which even the deaf can hear. This is the new communication system. This is the new language. The silent vibrational frequency language of the heart and soul. I have tears of inspiration writing this. I have so often experienced this intensely in the last few months and weeks. When the Sacred Heart is fully open – there is just the Power of the Love in the highest degrees, steeped in the Omniversal Wisdom, which is beyond human words. Through this Divine Light shines through and when all merge as one the Sacred Fires ignite and thus expands the Sacred Heart into a finely tuned communication center, which can tune in Universally. We are being transformed. We are being transmuted. We are being reshaped, reinvented, and indeed, totally brought into non-form to be reformed into New. It is the Sacred Heart which is the Alpha and Omega – the Portal, the Gate, through which all need to go through before they can step into the fullness of the New Golden Age in the New Earth.
Someone needs to hear about the power of trauma bonding. Whether you’re in the bond yourself or watching a family member/friend go through it.
Trauma bonding is when you become so heavily attached to a toxic person that you are willing to lose yourself in order to fix them. Your brain becomes highly addicted to the ups and downs of oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin that even when the relationship ends, you will seek and crave the person. You will become so obsessive, to the point that you will be looking for the fix. Even if that means destroying yourself in the process. (And I promise you WILL destroy yourself if it doesn’t end) The loss of love, makes you crave the person even more. It’s important to remember that it isn’t because you missed the person, it’s because YOU ARE DEPENDENT on the person. The same way that a heroin addict is dependent on a drug. If you want to break free from a trauma bond, the first step is recognizing that you need to detox the person from your mind and body. And THAT involves zero contact. It’s the only way for your nervous system to reset itself so that you can come home to yourself.
Associated Clinical Sign 8: Unwarranted Use of the Word “Abuse.”
Have you noticed a lot of Nazis recently? It seems like Nazis have been around a lot, does it seem that way to you?
Have you also noticed there seem to be a lot of references to the holocaust along with actual Nazis showing up places, have you noticed that?
There’s a reason. The inappropriate holocaust references are Associated Clinical Sign 8, in this case the unwarranted use of the holocaust as a comparison for their supposed “abuse.”
The appearance of both Nazis and holocaust references are a product of the pathogen, a specific set of damaged networks in the attachment system, damaged by sex abuse entering the family system at some point, and then rippling down generations in the distorted parenting that unresolved sex abuse trauma creates.
It’s the same pathogen, it’s just rippling. Patterns. It’s a trauma pathology from unresolved sex abuse traumatization rippling through generations by the distorted parenting that the unresolved trauma creates.
Each type of childhood trauma has its patterns. Physical child abuse has its patterns. Sexual child abuse has its patterns. Neglect child abuse has its patterns.
Psychological child abuse is a ripple from one of the others. The features of the psychological child abuse, the ripple, shows its origins, the rock of abuse that created the ripple.
Physical violence leads to high-anger and emotionally violent psychological child abuse. The ripples of physical child abuse are found in our prisons.
Neglect child abuse leads to emotional and psychological abandonment in later generations, in the ripple. The psychological alienation of alcoholism and substance abuse ripple from trans-generation neglect of the children.
Sexual child abuse leads to role-reversal psychological child abuse in future generations, in which the parent uses the child to meet the parent’s own emotional and psychological needs. In later generations its not overt sexual abuse, it’s a psychological violation of the child’s boundaries rather than physical.
It’s patterns of trauma, unresolved trauma rippling through the generations from the type of unresolved trauma that created them, rippling in the distorted parenting the trauma creates. Sex abuse is a hidden pathology – this pathogen hides as its first defense. It’s a pathology of false presentations, it’s a pathology of lies.
Have you noticed the fixation on pedophilia that surrounds the shared delusional disorder? Like with QAnon and Hillary-psychosis. There is a psychological “fixation” on child sex abuse in the themes that are generated surrounding the persecutory delusion – the fixed and false belief in supposed victimization.
This is the most dangerous pathogen on the planet. Far more deadly than Covid. It lives in our brain networks, in a specific set of damaged attachment networks, damaged by the type of trauma that forms them.
That’s why I can predict the use of “words” surrounding this pathogen. That is how much it is pattern – and that is how much I know about the pattern. I’m a trauma psychologist out of foster care and child abuse. I know the patterns of child abuse extremely well.
Right now, I’m not working the trauma, I’m working the ripple, the trans-generational transmission of trauma in the attachment pathology found in court-involved custody conflict following divorce, an attachment-breach in the marital dyad.
It’s an attachment pathology, rippling from unresolved sex abuse in the generations of the parents. As it moves through generations, it moves from a physical expression to a psychological expression. Physical child abuse changes to high-anger emotionally violent psychological child abuse, sexual child abuse changes to a psychological role-reversal relationship, and the parent uses the child as a regulatory object to meet the parent’s needs.
That’s what we have in the family courts, the psychological role-reversal and violation of the child’s psychological autonomy and boundaries. A ripple.
Trauma is like a rock thrown into water, there is the rock of the abuse, the splash is the trauma, then the ripples out across time through the distorted parenting that the unresolved trauma creates.
It is so incredibly pattern that I can predict specific words it will use – like the unwarranted use of the word “abuse” (ACS-8) or the use of the word “forced” (ACS-1) – we shouldn’t “force” the child to have a relationship with the other parent, I can’t “force” the child to get in the car – don’t “force” me to wear a mask on my face, that’s “abusive.”
Associated Clinical Sign 1: Use of the Word “Forced”
Associated Clinical Sign 8: Unwarranted Use of the Word “Abuse”
In science, we develop an explanatory model that makes a verifiable and refutable prediction. Dr. Childress has made a prediction that with this particular pathology, there will often be a cloud of associated symptoms present from among the 12 Associated Clinical Signs.
Based on my knowledge and expertise with this specific trauma pathology, a shared delusional disorder surrounding the collapse of a narcissistic personality parent, there are three definitive diagnostic indicators.
1) Attachment pathology toward a normal-range parent, the child’s rejection of a normal-range parent.
2) High protest behavior, either extremely high anger evidenced by the presence of five specific narcissistic personality disorder symptoms displayed by the child – OR – the child will display extremely high anxiety evidenced by a phobic fear of the mother or father. Extremely high anger or fear.
3) A persecutory delusion. The child displays a persecutory delusion toward a normal-range parent.
If those three symptoms are present, there is only one diagnostic explanation – that’s AB-PA Foundations.
There will also be a high prevalence of Associated Clinical Signs. Any particular ACS may not be present, but there will be a cloud of Associated Clinical Signs surrounding the pathology.
No diagnostic model for any pathology is so precise that it can predict specific words that will be used. AB-PA can and does.
We need to listen to the child. The child should be allowed to decide if they want to see the other parent. ACS-2.
My mom is such a liar, she’s so fake. She acts one way around other people but she’s different when they’re not around. She’s so fake. ACS-6.
I don’t want my dad at my graduation (awards ceremony, sports event, school play…), I get too stressed out and anxious and I can’t concentrate and relax when he’s at the event. ACS-3.
With AB-PA, I’m at the plate calling my home run to left field. Section 112. Row 11. Seat 6. In the cup-holder. That’s my scientific prediction made from the model – so… am I right? Is the ball sitting in the cup-holder of Seat 6, Row 11, Section 112 in the left field pavilion?
I’m just trying to be helpful. I know this stuff already. I know it so well, I can predict the words and sentences it’s going to say.
It wants us to stop trying to “force” it to do things against its will, we’re like Nazis and the holocaust, we’re “abusive,” we’re returning children to abusive pedophiles because we’re pedophiles, pedophiles are everywhere. People are “fake.”
A thought disorder created from unresolved trauma, the trans-generational transmission of trauma. The ripple of unresolved child abuse and the collapse of narcissistic personality pathology into persecutory delusions – just like Hitler in Nazi Germany.
It’s not the Germans, it’s in all of us. It waits for a vulnerability. It lives in our minds, in a specific set of damaged information structures in the attachment networks.
This is the most dangerous pathogen on the planet – and it’s alive and moving. It will move to its purpose.
It’s called “parallel process.” It’s because both things are caused by the same pathology, perscutory delusions surrounding the collapse of narcissitic personality pathology.
Craig Childress, Psy.D. Clinical Psychologist, CA PSY 18857
My worth, my love is no longer ignoring the reality of sex addiction and my desire not to involve myself in that energy.
As a survivor of childhood oral rape, intimate partner abuse and failed attempts to engage me in relationships have fueled my celibate state .
Sex is far from a sleep aide , and intimacy, trusting in a partner has not jelled , yet
As a Mom of 3 sons , I was drugged into Hell on Earth, and education and truths denied , and much has been distorted about the normal flow .
It’s very sad to sense that energy, and it’s often not noticed because I’m not seeking a casual sexual experience . I did not marry in an open marriage mind set , but in the shelter that dispelled the Predators.
For years o thought it was something I did to encourage the secually addicted, but I learned long ago it was not I. Pornorgraphy and Sex Addiction as everything was a disorder, labeled to profit the industry of death that has been psychiatry.
It’s open season now , as the chemical soup offered up , further alters our natural self and reversion to very low energy, primal and often distorted in unhealed trauma tries to benefit from those they consider ” weaker” .
Tie a knot in the end of your rope , and hang on as light and love washes you clean and your creative juices aide you in evolving New Earth .
Let it Flow , Let it Flow
I’m keeping this little light of mine , safe …ending cycles and generations of abuses that deserved healing .
My living death , deserves an autopsy , a burial and grieving for losses beyond human endurance , ignored by laws , society , religion, medicine 💊which is the rabbit hole we are unprepared for ..
Know your boundaries in this new earth , know all is not seen .
Know your gifts . Know ego is a passenger, not the driver Your ego works with your higher self in synergy and balance .Rest and Rejuvenate.
Let your burdens go ..free fall or leap into the safety of Divine Love and begin again ❤.
Toxic people are loyal to only one person; themselves. It is frustrating from the outside to see them seemingly getting their way and destroying relationships with no remorse. They say they want healthy relationships with us, as they are in the process of crossing every boundary every person in their life puts in place. Severely character disordered people aren’t capable of loyalty.
They don’t care about relationships lasting. If they had that type of concern, they would have to consider the needs and feelings of others, and this requires far too much effort for them. The way they choose to show up in their relationships is to betray, manipulate, sulk, gossip and play games.
Never be jealous when a toxic person moves on to “love” someone else. That new person is their next victim. Hold the mindset that toxic people will always take the easy road. The road they take is to blame the real victim and exonerate themselves. Let them play this game… without you.
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