One Mother’s Story
It’s been 7 long agonizing months since I’ve seen my daughter after our traumatic experience. Her court ordered therapist claims to be a kidnapping victim expert using psuedoscience polyvagal theory invented by Dr. Steven Porges. Isn’t that ironic? I was accused of kidnapping my daughter because I protected her, but Dad and the Family court are the real kidnappers, and this fake kidnapping expert is participating in it. So sick and twisted.
It completely mystifies me that my daughter’s therapist claims she can heal trauma by keeping my daughter away from her mother and not ask me for any information about the history of what she’s been through. Only believing the false narratives of Dad. How do I press back on this? Who holds this quack accountable? I have no belief complaints to the California owned Psych board will do anything. Something popped up on FB about Stephen Porges trauma recovery and this really pricked me.
This kind of stuff puts me out of my mind. I still don’t know what happened to my daughter when she was wrongfully locked up in a mental ward for not wanting to go with her dad. It seems to me the child I knew “died” that day that we were attacked, and this other version, the brainwashed child, is someone different. The heartbreak is unbearable.
When I try to imagine what it will be like to be re-united or see her again, at this stage of my own trauma, I won’t know who she is. They are messing with her head and memories of me. That part is so unbearable.
I had a talk with my pastor’s wife and argued with her that I can’t hold on and be expected to wait for my daughter to grow up and then reform our bonds. She yelled and screamed at me and I screamed back “you don’t understand what I feel”. And I told her, I have not seen or met a Mother who has survived this. I have not seen or met a Mother who can tell me what it was like to be reunited with their stolen child after so many years gone by.
Is anyone her able to comment on that?
My pastor’s wife told me that I would have to be the one to tell that story. This made me more angry with frustration. I want MY child back.