20 & pregnant in 1950

They asked me to tell you what it was like to be twenty and pregnant in 1950 and when you tell your boyfriend you’re pregnant, he tells you about a friend of his in the army whose girl told him she was pregnant, so he got all his buddies to come and say,

*** ” We all fucked her, so who knows who the father is?” And he laughs at the good joke….

( This was the threat against my Mom at 17)

What was it like, if you were planning to go to graduate school and get a degree and earn a living so you could support yourself and do the work you loved—what it was like to be a senior at Radcliffe and pregnant and if you bore this child, this child which the law demanded you bear and would then call “unlawful,” “illegitimate,” this child whose father denied it … What was it like? […]

It’s like this: if I had dropped out of college, thrown away my education, depended on my parents … if I had done all that, which is what the anti-abortion people want me to have done, I would have borne a child for them, … the authorities, the theorists, the fundamentalists; I would have born a child for them, their child.

But I would not have born my own first child, or second child, or third child. My children.

The life of that fetus would have prevented, would have aborted, three other fetuses … the three wanted children, the three I had with my husband—whom, if I had not aborted the unwanted one, I would never have met … I would have been an “unwed mother” of a three-year-old in California, without work, with half an education, living off her parents….

But it is the children I have to come back to, my children Elisabeth, Caroline, Theodore, my joy, my pride, my loves. If I had not broken the law and aborted that life nobody wanted, they would have been aborted by a cruel, bigoted, and senseless law. They would never have been born. This thought I cannot bear.

What was it like, in the Dark Ages when abortion was a crime, for the girl whose dad couldn’t borrow cash, as my dad could? What was it like for the girl who couldn’t even tell her dad, because he would go crazy with shame and rage? Who couldn’t tell her mother? Who had to go alone to that filthy room and put herself body and soul into the hands of a professional criminal? – because that is what every doctor who did an abortion was, whether he was an extortionist or an idealist.

You know what it was like for her. You know and I know; that is why we are here. We are not going back to the Dark Ages. We are not going to let anybody in this country have that kind of power over any girl or woman. There are great powers, outside the government and in it, trying to legislate the return of darkness. We are not great powers. But we are the light. Nobody can put us out. May all of you shine very bright and steady, today and always.

Ursula K. Le Guin

Lyme Disease – Holistic Protocol to Completely Rebuild the Immune System

I have been tested twice for Lyme’s , and like

other dis eases , realize it’s a lot of overlapping

symptoms , just as my misdiagnosed ” Bipolar”;

it’s what a for profit , non scientific approach

offers ..much to my detriment ..and that of so many .

Lyme Disease – Holistic Protocol to Completely Rebuild the Immune System
— Read on www.organiclifestylemagazine.com/issue/15-lyme-disease-holistic-protocol-to-completely-rebuild-the-immune-system

New Mexico Governor: Opioid addicts to qualify for medical marijuana – KVIA

Gov. Michelle Lujan Grisham says she will direct health officials in her administration to begin making opioid addiction a qualifying condition for patients seeking to use medical marijuana.
— Read on www.kvia.com/news/new-mexico/new-mexico-governor-opioid-addicts-to-qualify-for-medical-marijuana/977006463

Trump administration quietly changes definition of “domestic violence” and “sexual assault” | Salon.com

The past devaluation of rape , and life long ramifications , towards

anyone , of any gender, race , and age has been exposed as unimportant

from stockpiles of unprocessed rape kits , and being further abused

in a culture of profession acceptance .. Transforming this , will be

a community effort , in a consciousness that does not the rape,

of children, ( molestation seems to desensitize an act that overpowers

a child , doing much harm) .

Healing modalities , love and acceptance await , as we lift the bar

to reconnect with sacred soul contracts , ending so many doing

so much harm.

Last April, Justice Department office on violence against women began to narrowly redefine its basic concepts
— Read on www.salon.com/2019/01/23/trump-administration-quietly-changes-definition-of-domestic-violence-and-sexual-assault/

Home is Behind Your Eyes

James Taylor sings of holding the hope and steadiness

of doing your best, knowing enough within , and without.

Nothing out there, should take us away from owning

our essence , and it’s thrilling to know this cycling of

harsh lessons , is being transformed , not to have to come

up, individually or collectively .

I was blessed to see James Taylor preform , live and I

witnessed magic, and the humanity of an artist , who was

backed by other artist , he preformed with in 1999!

That’s a big deal, and they rocked !


Fewer young people are going to church, report says | Fox17

A survey several years ago, addressed kids leaning

towards spirituality rather than religion .

This results from the Christians who do not walk their talk.

I personally made the discovery , and did not push choice

on our children, due to a non involved dad .. it was his day off

I have heard the blame in an effort to shame me , however

Christianity is not something I attach in truth to many who

validate themselves ” as a Christian” and reveal Adverse

beliefs and acts that are very separated from the light.

Quoting the Bible only confirms they read and feel they

know all ..

TENNESSEE– New research finds that young people aren’t attending church as much as they used to and those who are still going are choosing a more contemporary feel. The trend is especially apparent among college students. Pastor, Sandy Mcclain, of Mt.
— Read on fox17online.com/2019/01/23/fewer-young-people-are-going-to-church-report-says/