It has always been my intent to have the love
that endured , thru time .. endless love
worthy of trying times and peace that comes
comes from knowing each matters , intimacy
is reality , 2gether in spirit …
1st – 9 months was just walking thru the motions
much like a jail sentence , I felt I had to marry
the boy , who had no idea of who I was, nor himself .
Calling me Spooky , he broke all vows , as well
as abused me .. 9 months was conformation and
affirmation …property I was not ..
I allowed him to charge me with desertion ,
and pushed thru guilt , having lost my virginity
created a compliance to a sex addict/cheater ,
which was known within my siblings
even double dates with brother in his cheating .
Letters , attested to the brotherhood of holding
secrets and lies ..
Uber close to Mother , who was law .. Cold towards
2-3 Weeks ,
A very cute man, a party in Pungo Beach
brownies and instant like had him ask
me to move in …a soul mate with addictions
going nowhere , allowed me to say No
to moving in and yes to marriage .
It was a situation where he had the upper floor
of a huge home in Norfolk , his Mom
and maid downstairs …he expected I would
work and he could do …whatever .
I returned home, accepted , then broke an
engagement, moved to Richmond’s fan area
briefly, and returned , meeting , and married
within 6 months #3… 24 legal years .
I’m not sure I ever saw him in authentic self
42 years later ..
Knowing myself , I don’t sense marriage is
a reality , for the values my Granny held dear
were on her own , after her savage marriage
and divorce …
I’m not seen in the love light , as I would love
and stand for , just as I do children …
It’s taken years , years of set backs, but my
focus has been to have that experience
as my soul has searched for ..
I shall hold it within, as I continue the liberation
from all that took me way from my soul
intentions , and defined the very basic nature
of codes which I don’t feel should be received
as needy , so I hold my self .. No manual
it will be Thy Will, and I don’t feel a lack .
A simple life , of abundance in things many
take for granted , I will ever be grateful now
and the cherry on top would be the experience
of Divine Masculine …it really is Thy Will.
I’m not in limbo, searching or feel a lack
therefore …as I spend quality time , doing
what I what I require .. much in repose
knowing Peace, and Balance ..against odds
that try many souls ..
I am overjoyed that connections are being made
to that forever n ever kinda love, and foundation
we long for , exposing the renewal of the best
our hearts ♥️ and souls can offer ..
It’s a wonderful sign, an affirmation .
Now I lay my head down , certainly to sleep
and dream of a reality that’s tangible , not
only in dreams 🌈🎁😘❤️©️
Blessings & Peace ,
Patience is Prayer …🤪🙏🏼💯
I am an average millennial but when it comes to romance, I’m what you call an old school romantic. However, it is slightly difficult to survive in a world where the basic idea of love is now swiping right or left on a mobile app. I see my friends meeting people at a cafe, event or club and instead of seeing where it goes, they end up hooking up and never seeing each other again.
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