Surrender

It is not visionary , or fake , when I sense

the essence of light , but a gift 💝 that has

been a guided when I’m in my 0 point .

I have labored long and hard to know and

do better , and it’s time.

I surrendered to this 16 years ago, given my

life thus far , how I could impact the folks

who need to hear my message the most.

I’ve been all over the place in my studies ,

and it comes together beautifully like an

heirloom quilt .

The fruition of my child 🧒 hood dreams .

Dad looked like Elvis , was uber not fun when

tired , which I assured you was worn out tired .

Cindy , next door her Mom , Rose 🌹and Grand

Mother , brother Barry , and Woody , a Father

like none other, a survivor of cancer , who

lost his voice , ate through a tube , and smoked

his Camels to the end . He did not die of cancer .

This family aided in my upbringing with grace

and inclusion I did not feel at home.

Proper English ladies guided me , there was much

light around me . It helped , but there was always

the unspoken , the puffs of breath as if exasperated

from Mom who was feeling alone and servitude

would be her life.

As I pondered this Full Moon in Libra , of which

I am aware will bring gifts and openings long

time coming , I leap forward to May, and Taurus

full Moon, My Moon . Younger brother by 14

months , and could nurture and turn it off like

a faucet …each thus unstable for my Peace

and foundational energy , as theirs was not

stable , and communication with held , seemed

weaponized. I was not sure of how to self care

but found stability within others homes , just

as there was drama, but overtly it was the highly

bonded family , the Mom heard her child.

Working Mom’s as well, the whole family

unit engaged, and aware of each other, in

a unison lacking in my home. I never considered

living with Granny Zola, or Granny Cora &

Grandaddy Grayson , I stayed within my family

unit until 18 ..

My dreams were of communication, of caring

of laughter , beauty with gardens , space to run

or walk , all one needed in a harmony of

peace , that silence welcomed and understood

as holy , and sacred for individual growth .

Creative space as well, not out there somewhere

but honored in the home place . There are shows

that honor this sweet , simple, spiritual home

which is my personal Moon Mother Taurus .

As I listened to HZ music , impressed to learn

it raises one’s vibration positively @900HZ

which occurs to me , might be RX for mood ,

I glanced up at my dreamcatcher which is

3 Wolves , in stained glass .

That took my mind to my Native American

Astrology which is beautifully drawn in chalk

and shows 12 grandmothers , grandfathers

which Azure said was a lot at the time.

I began to weep , as my mind wrapped around

her words , and my awareness, as a Pisces

who represents all 12 signs, with a grandparent

to “hold” me in each !

As my awareness expands to receive these gifts

I am comforted, beyond measure , as I surrendered

to the power of love that is the universal heart

beat , that in my awakening , I am born again

and I laid the blue print that is the 10 of Cups

and it’s unfolding as Empress & Empress

who have come together in a higher love

that is Divinity itself , with our reality , our

center , our core in harmony , in sacred

union of souls . Nothing before it that was not

a stepping stone towards each other , poof

gone ..

Nothing between us , to block our paths as

intergraded, multifaceted people in union

as friends, lovers, partners . Debates but not

arguing . Authentic , and Deep , Funny , Safe

and Trusting , Erotic and Mysterious .

And with all that I became aware of craziness

that comes up to be transmuted, transformed .

And we each would do so, without inflicting

the other.

So I surrendered , long , long ago, to a stable

harmonic foundation , within which to create

unrestricted , unbound , but rhyming with

my flow , which can be altered at any given

moment , if need be.

I have made every effort to giving myself

this , since I found myself alone in each and every

way in 2003 , a repetitive theme that will

finally be resolved ..

Exhale

Surrender was extremely arduous, for those

around me had no idea, of what was needed.

I am forgiving in the not knowing , it is

the knowing and withholding that no longer

serves me , and I have surrendered to releasing

that I may fill my cup with what my child

planted seeds for coming up long ago.

Surrendered to not having to know pain

addiction or humility, to know love ,

on my knees, along side , not below my

Emerald Emptor, who stands on his own

as I knew him at first site , without knowing .

I have surrendered to our union on high .

©️

Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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