Tag: wisdoms

Mother’s Day , every day

I wrote you out a card.

I filled it full of love.

I used my tears to seal It,

then I addressed it to the above.

I put it in a pillar box, and

I hope it finds its way,

but just in case it doesn’t,

this is what I want to say.

I miss you in the moments,

through the sunlight and the rain.

I miss our conversations.

I long for them again.

I miss the simple things.

I miss you being there.

I don’t really have a special place.

I miss seeing you anywhere.

I hope that you are watching,

with your family on your mind.

Catching all of our memories,

the ones you left behind.

Every day is Mother’s Day

because you are in my heart.

And every day I meet you

in a time before we part.

Author Joanne Boyle Heartfelt art by Steffi Krenzek

Cannot beg for love…

Begging for love is not my thing . I did beg , for marriage, and family

even as toxic as it was ..I was medicated to the gills, afraid , and holding

all the energy of an addict .

I knew after a time, I would never , ever find myself in that place again

and I have not .. I will not walk that back .

I’m not hard to love , as a few folks have tried to imprint upon me , or

suggest I’m competition.. with my child ? Nope .

Trauma and Drama , Control do not interest me at all.

Mother Earth

I long ago realized how much I could forgive and release my own Mom

in her darkness , in her lack of nurture , her inability to teach me etc

by understanding that I had many Mothers , but especially Mother

Earth . It made all the difference to know the love of Mother and her

guidance and hand on my back is always & forever protecting, guiding ,

teaching ….❤️💯🌍

Waking Self

I have had lots of help in the area , as before when a big shift is headed

towards me, there is no one …meaning I have to do this myself and that

I’m ready ..

The only faith I had , in this forwards leap was our sons being awake enough to not be negative , that they would show progress in their journey and silence was total and complete .. of course , I cry , full well knowing their intent , the power play , the never ending story .

Business is clearing , many gifts have come my way , and it’s going to happen .

For this I’m shown , that the human exchange , our sons being used or willing participating in continued efforts to abuse and control emotionally .

Or it’s just a moot point, dead …

So , my tears cleanse , my heart aches and I am surrendered to what is

revealed .. last year as this , the facts are facts ..

Which leaves room, space for those who do care , who do not intend me

harm or lack , who know their heart and minds , who can logically

acknowledge the tyranny , and see their path includes healing and

forgiveness, and growth ..

It’s challenging , exactly what it’s supposed to be , the gift that allows me

to complete this mission , lacking moral normalcy or universal law .

I am Thankful for the love and support and acceptance of others and

for the opportunity to hold my truths and preference for peace .

Ending the ripple effect of abuse , neglect , that’s malicious and malignant.

Thanking my ancestors for having the faith , love and support to show

me the way…💯❤️☮️

4 Laws of Life

The 4 laws of life.

The first says,

“The person who enters our life is the right person”; That is to say that no one goes into our lives by chance, all the people around us, who interact with us, are there for something, to make us learn and advance in every situation.

The second law says,

“What’s going on is the only thing that could have happened.” Nothing but nothing, absolutely nothing of what happens to us in our lives could not have been otherwise. Not even the most insignificant detail. There is no: “if I had done such a thing, such another would have arrived …”. Not. What happened is the only thing that could have happened and it had to be like that for us to learn this lesson and that we can move forward. Every situation that happens to us in our lives is perfect, even if our mind and our ego resist and do not want to accept it.

The third says,

“At any time when it starts, it’s the right time.” Everything starts at the right time, nor before, nor after. When we are ready to see something new start in our lives, that’s where it will start.

And the fourth and last:

“When something ends, it’s over.” Just like that. If something ended in our lives, it is for our evolution, it is better to let fall, move forward and move forward already enriched with this experience.

As the saying goes: no snowflake falls into the wrong place.

Waves

They say it comes in waves.

That’s true.

But nobody specifies what kind of waves.

We need a guide.

Is it the monstrous ones that come in the beginning?

The ones that knock you over continuously? Without giving you time to catch your breath before the next one pulls you under.

Spins you around.

Disorients you.

Exhausts you?

Is it the expected ones that come before holidays and anniversaries?

The ones you anticipate so you drive separately to events or have an excuse ready to leave abruptly for when they hit.

Because you know they will.

Is it the ones you see coming and decide to swim away from?

Because you don’t want to feel?

Or hurt?

So you thrash.

Ultimately resulting in them taking you under.

Again and Again.

Or the unexpected ones that crash over you in the middle of aisle 3 at the grocery store when you see the Milano cookies you both loved?

The reality of it all rushes to the surface.

The wave that leaves the cart and groceries abandoned right there..

And

You drowning in your tears in the parking lot.

Or the ones you decide to fight.

Because you are angry.

Swimming right into the impact.

Lamenting.

Asking Why?

WHY????

Questions go unanswered.

Taking you right under the surface.

Is it the ones that haven’t came in quite a while? That had time to gain traction and height.

Ones that hit you out of nowhere.

When you are about to call them on the phone after they have been gone for years.

Because you wanted to tell them some good news.

Then you remember.

These ones that leave you on the floor in confusion and deep sadness like it was the first weeks without them.

Or is it the ones you have been riding over and over?

Almost like you become seasoned.

Knowing how to let them guide you.

Letting them wash over you.

All the feelings felt.

No fighting back.

Learning to go with grief not against it.

Because those waves will always catch up to you.

And..

They are there for a reason.

To be experienced.

To be validated.

Grief is learning to live with that love you still feel.

Navigating this rocky journey without them.

And that’s never easy.

But as much as you learn to feel all the emotions…

To give yourself permission to..

And give yourself grace…

The less intimidating those waves will become.

Lessons my Mom & Dad taught

Things my Mother and Father taught me:

You are stronger than you realize.

You can also be crueler than you realize.

The smallest words will break your heart.

You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago.

People come and people go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires.

You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep.

You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to.

Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4am, tell them. If you still love them at 9.30am, tell them again.

Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place.

You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself.

Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it.

You will learn how to sleep alone, and how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed.

Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive.

You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call.

You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter.

You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin.

Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you.

People do not say “I love you” all the time. Sometimes it sounds like, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘Let me know when you get home.’ Make sure you’re listening.

You will be okay. You will be okay.

Mom & Dad’s Girl,

Luzette

Garden of the Heart

My mother kept a garden

A garden of the heart

She planted all the good things

That gave my life its start

She turned me to the sunshine

And encouraged me to dream

Fostering and nurturing

The seeds of self-esteem

And when the winds and rain came

She protected me enough

But not too much because she knew

I’d need to stand up strong and tough

Her constant good example

Always taught me right from wrong

Markers for my pathway

That will last a lifetime long

I am my mother’s garden

I am her legacy

And I hope today she feels the love

Reflected back from me.

~ Vincent Tripolone III

~ Art by Claudia Tremblay