Tag: wisdoms

3 Sons

This is so ; loosing my place via

psychiatric abuse ; medicated for

” problematic marriage ”

My firstborn made me a mother.

My second son made me an advocate.

My third son made me a mom.

You’re probably wondering what the difference is between these three.

A mother is all straight spine and arched brow. A we-do-not-eat-cookies-before-dinner sort of thing.

An advocate is a voice. She speaks for the boy who can’t find the words.

And a mom? A mom is a little more playful. She leaves dishes in the sink and plays cards at the table. She lets teenagers build beds out of plywood and stocks soup for sick days.

Everywhere I look is yellow.

Yellow grass, yellow sun, yellowjackets buzzing in the wilting yellow flowers.

All around me, summer is holding its breath.

My third son leaves for college next month. I can tell I’m beginning to exhaust people about this – a quality I was often warned about as a child. You wear people out too much.

Whenever I see Charlie’s gangly frame now – on the baseball field, standing in the kitchen eating a sandwich, walking down the driveway to get the mail – I think of his junior year in high school.

Stay afloat.

Night after night, this is what we told him. When he woke us at dawn, panicked and frantic. When he couldn’t eat, sleep, study, or laugh. When he had trouble simply getting out of bed each morning.

Where did he go?

This is the question I asked myself.

He turned to holiday decorations. Alone in the cold, he hung hundreds of Christmas lights, hoping to forget a girl. Night after night, he stood atop a latter and looped the strands through trees and over eaves.

A heart-shaped rock from the ball field. This became my most precious gift, offered in an offhand way after I missed a game. Gently, I placed it on the bookshelf in my bedroom.

As winter waged its private war within him, it became my touchstone, my silent apology, my gathering spot for what may lay ahead. Every morning I placed two fingers on it and took a deep breath.

Through it all, the trees maintained their sparkle. Until one night we found him sitting on the cold, hard ground beneath their shadowy branches, trembling and afraid that all was lost. We could not coax him back inside the house. From the window I watched father embrace son in a deep bear hug as they both slowly made their way up the driveway.

As the snow melted and the grass stood straight again, slowly, his spark returned. There is no magic to the healing beyond the basics—sleep, food, and time. Heartache demands we address our most primal needs first. It is rarely undone overnight.

One spring afternoon, I peered out the window. I saw a silhouette on a ladder. The air was aglow with the breath and blaze of a hundred bulbs amongst branches, strung by a dark-haired boy trying to find his way. With a new sky as his backdrop, he lifted strand after strand and coiled them together over one arm. He dropped them into the box at his feet—winter’s stars gone silent.

Here, in the yellow light, the trees and the stars feel far away. Yet still so close.

Stay.

This is what I long to say.

Stay here, in the bed you built.

Stay here in the kitchen with the soup and the grilled cheese.

Stay, even though I know it is impossible.

What people don’t tell you is one day you lose your children in a most exquisitely tender way.

I said no to cookies.

I spoke for the boy without words.

I chased.

I made so many mistakes.

Motherhood. No one departs unshaken.

Positive Twist in Energies

With Moon square Jupiter and then Moon conjunct Saturn, we will experience a sudden positive twist in energies, bringing optimism, good fortune, prosperity, blessings, and karmic repayments.

All signs will feel the benefit, however those with Sun, Moon, and Rising signs in Pisces and Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter, Cancer, ruled by the Moon, and Capricorn, and traditionally Aquarius, ruled by Saturn, will be impacted the most.

Here’s how these transits may impact each sign:

Aries: Expect a significant boost in confidence and leadership abilities, making you more assertive in your pursuits. Look out for new career opportunities that reflect your newfound self-assurance. Letting go of past pain that hinders your growth will bring a sense of renewal and cleansing, as you shed old habits or patterns that no longer serve you. A meaningful new beginning in your professional life is on the horizon, where your skills are recognized and rewarded unexpectedly. Stay open-minded and adaptable, as unexpected developments can occur at any moment. The news you’ve been waiting for is likely to arrive, enhancing communication and bringing clarity to your interactions.

Taurus: This period brings a surge of creative inspiration and motivation, enhancing your hobbies or artistic pursuits. You may be feeling a deeper sense of alignment with your soul’s purpose and agreater clarity about your path in life. A karmic repayment may come to you through resolving a long-standing family issue, allowing for a fresh start. Old doors need to close for new ones to open. During this time, you may encounter a divine connection that aligns with your values and resonates deeply with your soul. You might also feel a deep sense of connection to the cosmos, as if the stars are aligning to support your journey. Trust that everything is unfolding as it should, let go of old patterns that no longer serve you, and explore opportunities outside your comfort zone, knowing you are very close to manifesting your desires.

Gemini: Your communication skills will be heightened, facilitating important conversations and new connections. An unforeseen blessing, such as a supportive new friendship or career opportunity may come your way in the next couple of days. This fated meeting could lead to a fruitful collaboration or partnership, opening new avenues for progress. Find closure in matters that have caused emotional distress and release past traumas and use this time to move forward with greater peace and acceptance. As old connections fall away, it opens space for new soul connections to emerge. Use your energy intentionally to stay focused on your goals and dreams and remain open to the miracles unfolding in your life.

Cancer: Prepare for deep emotional healing that will strengthen your closest relationships. This is a time to resolve past misunderstandings and conflicts, leading to harmonious new beginnings in your personal life. Expect a significant opportunity that brings emotional and financial rewards. Pay attention to repeated number sequences, as these are signs guiding you toward destined meetings and aligning you with abundance on your path.

Leo: Your natural charisma will be magnified, making it an ideal time for new social opportunities and career recognition. Your manifestation power is strong, so ask the Universe for what you desire and watch your dreams come true. Solutions to challenges are on the way, and a new beginning awaits you. Noticing synchronicities and understanding that nothing is a coincidence will heighten your senses. Trust your gifts, intuition, and abilities. Stay flexible and receptive to how your dreams unfold, often in the most unexpected ways.

Virgo: Your analytical abilities will help you solve lingering problems, leading to positive and exciting changes. Prepare for possible financial windfalls as you clear paths toward your goals and achieve significant milestones. Effortless manifestation will be your strength, but it’s essential to let go of past fears and outdated beliefs for healing and forward movement. Take time to understand the lessons life is trying to teach you. Reflect on past patterns and look for ways to deepen and strengthen current soul connections.

Libra: Balance and harmony will be restored in your personal and professional relationships, bringing significant soul growth and a sense of stability. Seek new partnerships or collaborations that align with your core values. Resolving past conflicts related to fairness and equality will bring peace and you may notice a feeling of liberation as you release old emotional baggage or limiting beliefs. A divine connection could lead to an innovative work project or a new social endeavor that resonates deeply with you. Free yourself from unhealthy attachments and you will effortlessly draw in good fortune. You have learned your lessons; now it is time to receive the rewards.

Scorpio: Deep transformative energies will empower you to make significant life changes. Release suppressed emotions, embrace acceptance, and let go of fears holding you back. A karmic repayment will grant you emotional closure and personal empowerment, renewing stagnant areas of your life. Expect a profound spiritual or personal awakening that leads to new growth opportunities. Certain dynamics have served their purpose and no longer feel healthy or aligned; it might be time to give thanks for the blessings or lessons they brought, and to kindly let them go.

Sagittarius: Your adventurous spirit and philosophical outlook will be heightened, encouraging exploration of new horizons physically and intellectually. Positive karmic energy may manifest as travel opportunities or enriching educational experiences. Release limiting beliefs that have hindered your growth and look for new beginnings that broaden your perspective and introduce diverse experiences. Your dreams and intentions will manifest rapidly during this time, so get ready for everything to positively change. Your intuitin will be enhanced and you may experience a desire to connect with your ancestors and honor their wisdom and guidance.

Capricorn: You will feel a renewed sense of discipline and determination, helping you achieve your long-term goals. Expect karmic rewards in the form of recognition and respect in your professional life. Let go of past fears of failure and remove any mental limitations to fully embrace this growth period. Financial success and a newfound career path are within reach, offering stability and prosperity. This period marks the end of old cycles and the beginning of new ones, shifting you towards abundance and breakthroughs.

Aquarius: Original ideas will flow easily, bringing breakthroughs in your creative projects, hobbies, or passions. Karmic repayment may come through life-altering encounters or supportive networks, enhancing your recent hard work and efforts. Discard outdated thinking and embrace progressive ideas. Expect a work opportunity that aligns with your visions and promises abundance and success. The closure of karmic cycles will open new doors, making you a magnet for positive news. Start believing that you deserve all the good that is coming your way.

Pisces: During this time prepare for heightened intuition and sensitivity, and to bee feeling more aligned with your spiritual path. You are at a crossroads, ready to take a new direction. Be ready for surprising developments that bring your long-awaited goals and visions closer to reality. Get into a highly vibrating energy level where you know amazing things are coming. This shift in the cosmos brings eye-opening insights that can transform your entire perspective on life. Expect a fated meeting or divine connection that enhances your spiritual journey and brings you closer to your true self. Pay attention to spirit guides trying to communicate with you, as they are bringing divine guidance.

To read the full article please visit

http://www.empathplanet.com/july-24-moon-square-jupiter…/

Thank you

Alex Myles ❤️

Earth Hologram

What is the inverted matrix Earth Hologram I keep talking about?

The hologram I am referring to is an energetic field of paradigms (belief systems) that create a limited reality. When we are playing in these certain energetic frequencies. A lot of times we can’t fathom a different field of information or see-through a wider lens. In the inverted matrix people play in a lot of paradigms that are programmed and conditioned into them to keep them in lower states of consciousness. But we all have the ability to move through that frequency bandwidth and move up to a higher octave with a wider lens. We do this by letting go of the limited beliefs, transmuting Earth traumas, And not living within the confines of a conditioned society.

I hope this helps explain where I’m coming from and if any of this does not resonate with you just let it go.

Love, Jen Jen Reynolds

aka The Space Monkey 🛸🧬🐒