The Collapsed Narcissist

I have been aware that though I explain there is no understanding in the part of folks who block me ( blocking feelings , trauma , healing ) and keep false witness to soothe their own needs .

Helping one who has done much harm and still harbors ill feelings and abusive intentions blocks my progress . It’s as if I were compliant and accepting when I’m trying balance within and out and the other is still playing games and wearing a smile throughout .

So I’ve had the force that brought change and much was not my choice and educated choices are much better in the long run .

Separating myself from all attachments to be that 3rd person ; and observing along with research ,experience and dedication to knowing myself , being true to myself and surrendering to Divine ; Thy Will Be Done ✅

Others have Free Will ; I try to provide facts and my thoughts which have repelled by children and I’m surrendered to that .

I’m dedicated to balance in my life and folks who have no agenda and show respect , and love ❤️ and trust 🎁

That’s my Heaven On Earth

My physical home , and peace to be … to cook my meals, bake and alchemy with healing natural methods . Gardening , preserving food , writing ( I’m a poet at heart ❤️) and walking , plus a pet or 2 . It’s been since 2017 since I had space that welcomed pets without a great deal of money and conditions that were not safe for me , nor a pet .

2016 I had a natural habitat for what developed 3 dogs and 2 cats ; an eviction cost me all but 1 who moved with me twice and finally died of what I believe was Lyme related .

It’s been hard but that’s part of Retaliatory Landlord Abuse .

I learned retaliatory at the hands of a master to whom I have detached from long ago .He has not received the message,not accepted that I don’t belong to him .

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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