Lots of these threats as a patient and after it has increased for fear of being discovered and released .
I strongly feel a knew I would liberate this dark shadow and I am.
It is with deep love that I do so , for instilled in me was truth and light .
Fear this deep steals health and wealth eventually and all I have said has no resonance within him at all .
I am surrender to any allowance of any one threatening me on any level and don’t vibrate to that energy .
I know it as trauma , fear , brain damage , birthing etc and I am hanging with the knowledge that through intent and belief with a clearing heart I have survived a bedeviled man who will not allow any light past present or future for change challenges his timeline and much more .Silence is the mainstay throughout 4 decades with secrets beyond imagination that must be held 4ever .
Can’t touch that epidemic non gender specific but certainly worthy of healing and balancing or carry for the next decades of life .
No Repeats in this clearing and that certainly adversely affects those who wish to keep me shut up and miserable .
Babies I been laughing and crying .
Grateful to have a bed I can crash in and hopefully grab a bite before I prepare for 2 legal cases with reps above , below , to my right and to my left , I shall be as authentic and unemotional as possible as I ask for a confluence that I may not endanger my health further .
I called 3 times in the last 3 days to see if they have exceptions to the masks that are required now. All 3 phone calls were different workers. All 3 said to come to the warehouse. One said to come during the special senior hours because its also for medical exempt people. One said come either times during special hours or during regular hours. The last said to come to special senior hours if I’m immune compromised and if not to come during regular store hours.
I went this morning during senior hours.
The lady at the door told me its only for seniors65 and up. I told her I had a medical exemption. She smiled and waved me in and said she was going to let me in anyway. While I’m shopping with the older crew I was approached by a very nervous hotwire spitfire energy adrenaline junkie shelf stocker worker that appeared like they were on prison guard and put her hand up to stop me✋ and motioned to her mouth and said something to me. I couldn’t freaking hear her so I stepped a little closer and she put her foot forward and her hand like the karate kid and said (louder) “where is your MASK you need to have it on!”
I told her I was told BY COSTCO to come in and do my shopping during this senior time and I have athsma. She said , “okay???!!!” “Just making sure”.
I cried on my way to the store this morning just thinking WHAT HAS THIS WORLD TURNED INTO in a short period of time??? How did we go so far off rhythm. How did we end up standing in lines to buy crap made with chemicals packaged in plastic not knowing if we are a boy or a girl, shooting up our little babies and old folks with poisons and running to the Dr for pain meds ending up addicted to scratch offs and trying to get social security benefits so we can buy cigarettes and alcohol to numb the tooth pain because we can’t afford a dentist because were still paying off our Led Schwab account and being sued by the hospital for a broken arm that costed $3,000.
I waited in a long line 6 ft apart with bald or white haired folks full of age and beauty of years of wisdom and all had masks on. They looked, they stared. They didn’t say a word. I had my youngest with me even. They could have thought all kinds of things but they kept to themselves and minded there own business and it was fine!
This little karate shelf stocker was a ticking bomb waiting to blow up.
I have referred to the deep sleep induced by chemicals prescribed by an MD with intent on wealth and fame .
Jim referred to depression as the Deep Sleep..
Savagely I was induced into this deep sleep and the effort to keep me in that muted place for the protection of the inducers and the utilization of the two sleep state where in abuses abounded is lost .
It has been for a very long time as I patiently strived for a solid and safe foundation to complete and publish .
Releasing writings and research that supports current events and my small tribe while enjoying my life fully .
I never planned to fix anyone just to be heard .
Discernment is not Discrimination .
Abuses toward children attending ..As are all getting a more equitable platform and that challenges the ego bound .
As a survivor who co owns property that was becoming extremely run down in mutual property as well as leased that’s Mom’s which is essentially his , perhaps also illegally .
The extent of financial abuse is yet unclear .
I did protest and he told me to shut up during 6 consecutive phone calls after I left lawyer #3 in disgust upon the suggestion that I sell my property to stop the abuse .
Legal Fees and Medical were made my responsibility in his version of truths ..
I was chemically straight jacketed by a ” brother” MD who cut away from his brilliant wife after her help in his foundation and birthing his 4 children who were pictured across his wall like the trophies they are .
Brothers
I have endured this component and it’s weaponry as I healed and studied and experience and it’s much easier to discern .
I am keeping my promise to myself to know and do better but rejecting Christ Consciousness and growth which is compassionate and communicative and supportive rather than neglecting, negative or ignored behavior is glaringly apparent and begs highlighting to end this extremely low energy .
Character assination .
Masking abuses , openly shaming and creating drama in a get you at all cost is clearly reality .
This energy is being cleared Thankfully and I hope to be a warning that creates a better flow in foundations , without the negatives winning due to a tradition that has never had the light in far too much shadow .
Resistance clarifies what I found the legal system has begun to wake to in conscious lawyers ..
Landlords do domestically abuse as I well know from a marriage contract with my Landlord as he continues to avoid the truths that come through experiences that teach adversity . Trauma shows up in anger and rage and get even ; death to me to end the conflict or accusing me of being a crazy maker..
I’m not the judge nor jury but I am concluding the harsh lessons of not having a force outside myself rule my life so adversely .
My work has been delayed but not stopped and with increased involvement locally that is of higher energy and respectful and loving , I plant seeds and listen to your shadows and I throw as much light on that as I can .
Then it’s you !! Create your life , lighter .
When the student is ready the teacher shows up and vice versa.
So Blessed , which conflicts many I conclude the effects of wars on others which can and does bedevil them and spewing rather that taking ownership delays and compounds the Negative which does feel like hell.
Keep going
Don’t Look back .
Heaven on Earth is here .shadow is not pleased .
Trying to reason or avert or council or pray have not received favor so I surrender to what is .
I am counting on not going into further decline with a pancreatic attack which I have managed to do these last few days .
I am not seeking medical help until after ..Perhaps a week for the office will be closed the last week of July .
Have to have the strength to move and not invite congestive heart failure to the mix . I will prevail.
I have friends and clients and in between due with babies or Moms who need council and survivors that would benefit as I hear in my groups and this site builds , I am very thankful to be able to respond on many levels and I am held in higher consideration that does not test me but leaves me feeling the Divines hand on my back .
So I shall rise tomorrow , on my own..And ask for time to present ..
For US. I stand for this is far too common .
3 weeks ago I received text from the Mom of 4 sons aged 3 and under who lived below .
I was in council with her husband who responded as deeply as he could ; feeling totally over whelmed .
I saw improvement but was unaware of how he shared my council with his wife .
Her text was an affirmation of success in creating a foundation that had given her the space to reunite with spirit and she was very gracious in her Thanks and requested more guidance .🙏🎆😇🐸❤
I also received a call from out of state from a friend of 15 years who left her abuser .
And I discovered those who evoke harm or ill or disadvantage another have had challenges to nudge them as I did .
They do get easier and gratitude for all that is or will ever be replaces grief for each mistake or transgression authentic or masked or manufactured ; lighten your load.
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