Cannot beg for love…

Begging for love is not my thing . I did beg , for marriage, and family

even as toxic as it was ..I was medicated to the gills, afraid , and holding

all the energy of an addict .

I knew after a time, I would never , ever find myself in that place again

and I have not .. I will not walk that back .

I’m not hard to love , as a few folks have tried to imprint upon me , or

suggest I’m competition.. with my child ? Nope .

Trauma and Drama , Control do not interest me at all.

Amused by your suffering – NPD

Sherri Campbell PhD

So much of how we cope in our emotionally dysfunctional family is to become absolutely dedicated to gathering the facts and details of our side of any problem. In gathering our facts, we trick ourselves into believing that we will be able to prove our side, speak our truth, and be heard.

What we need to learn is that emotional abusers purposely leave incriminating evidence in your life because they want to fight with you. They want you to try and prove yourself, your side, and your facts. They live for the chaos of this type of attention, drama, and conflict. Conflict makes them feel invigorated and alive. For them conflict is a source of pure satisfaction and entertainment.

The teaching to take is that a normal human being does not like to see other people, especially those closest to them, suffer. Sadly, emotional abusers view the suffering they cause to their victims as a source of pure amusement.