Tag: Dad

Fatherhood

Becoming a father a few months ago transformed me in ways words nearly fail to capture. The Magic of this process weaves this sacred bond, one I have prepared for my entire 50 years of healing and living.

When I hold my daughter, something mysterious, divine, and deeply human moves; when she smiles at me, I am naked, powerless, and powerful. These fleeting yet eternal moments embody the purest form of Love, rendering Life’s ceremony the most sacred of all.

There are tender, almost fragile moments when I think about the wounded world she will have to navigate. In these moments, I hope she only knows the joy of being alive, shielded from Life’s often accompanying despair.

How will I prepare her for this world fraught with complexities? How can I love her in such a way that she grows to be a fierce yet tender guardian of the Earth? How will I share the heavy truths that lie upon my heart? I yearn for her to delight in the world’s joy and wonder, to find beauty in the morning dew, Magic in the skies, and blessings in the land.

My thoughts often wander to the many children who do not know safety today. They lie awake, tormented by the roar of warplanes, the blood-soaked streets, and the abominable pain of hunger. How will I ever explain to her the wounds we have inflicted upon the Earth and each other and the profound prophecies these times unveil?

I seek wisdom in myths, ancient cosmologies, poetry, the counsel of elders, and the embrace of the land. Today, the words of Robin Wall Kimmerer echo in my heart:

“Even a wounded world is feeding us. Even a wounded world holds us, giving us moments of wonder and joy. I choose joy over despair. Not because I have my head in the sand, but because joy is what the Earth gives me daily, and I must return the gift.”

I feel the gift of Life deeply: the gift of family, the gift of tending the land, the gift of prayer and remembering, the gift of knowing Magic, plants and the art of ceremonies, the gift of Love. So many gifts, my dear little one, are coming your way.

But of all these gifts, you are the greatest gift to my world and this world.

Angell Deer

Dad

With a Capricorn Dad, this Pisces had plenty of test within our time together .

He was so young when I arrived , and though I didn’t realize it , he had survived a very difficult and traumatic family life , with divorce of his parents taking place around the time of my birth . He had experienced the death of his Maternal Grandfather , and his Maternal Grandmother just after my birth .. He and Mom experienced the still born death of their 1st baby and the promise by Mom’s parents to ‘raise’ Mom’s 1st daughter for the 1st year of parents marriage was withdrawn …so there was a lot going on , for the young man who wanted a son, and by the looks of my , I did look like a boy 🧐

Neither of them knew about trauma, or that they had plenty of it , and it sure deserved the healing ❤️‍🩹 that might have reduced the physical pain and suffering each endured.

Dad is never far from my heart , and I can honestly say he never ever wounded me as deeply and throughly as other family did , eventually and have no remorse, feeling I deserve the worst outcomes .

With the Capricorn full moon coming next week, I feel more illumination will be made about many things we hold near to our hearts ❤️⚖️

I send you Love & Light and Peace ☮️, this and every day 💯🤩🙏🏼