It has been very difficult as a Highly Sensitive
Person, to protect myself energetically , from
a “partner ” whose covert ability to lie , buy or
threaten his way through an entire life , as
recently as 2 years ago slammed me in court
and a connection through our co owned property
of when he dominates and abuses me, is the
only connection to him , in his mind.
I cut any cords with him a long time ago,
however I had the Complex – PTSD that no
one acknowledged (4 Virginia Licensed
MDs specializing in psychiatry) , gobs Of Therapist
and networking with mental health groups for
many years …it freaking never came up.
ChiChing ..What a Blessing that Education..
I took a test, in 2006, 100% over Ex..
Masculine energy has a tendency not to have
adapted to forgiveness .. indeed holding unforgivenes
lifelong and projecting that out after the glow
wears off, when threatened perhaps the trigger
misses that step ? Holding it , having been trained
to be tuff…and often experience support wearing
It’s dealing like death to transform this, to surrender
I had a lot of masculine energy , and I feel that
was affected by the psychiatric RXs and my absorption
of males in negative energy .. Zeroing in on their
soft spots , triggering them , mothering them
which is nurture , not mother in my output.
I fuss over myself , and am kind to myself , as I
wish to receive ..So many folks never adapt to that
of which I have made an art form.. it’s extremely
necessary , and I am centered .
I have had no voice in relationships with many
folks and sometimes I gave up my power .
Beyond Court adventures , I have housing issues
which again trigger old energy of foundations
etc , but I am confidant that’s clearing and transforming.
I have found my voice on various levels , and won
the respect and balance in several tested relationships.
Many more person to person affirmations and love
exchanges have been challenged by cruel test of
repeated outside critics influence ..not on me
but on others , and the trickle down, that I
chose to sit out… I trust the process , and have
learned my miss is my mercy or blessing .
In that I have held certain dreams , closer to my
heart , but related to return to love , integration
harmony restored for so many , and that love
field of positive light expands …it is a blessing
given all that has been, that resolution is at
hand , which totally liberates me , finically ,
old business and cycle ends , thus I am secured
to step out of the targeted human , fully
responsible, and creatively moving forward
with no limits to my vision ..
It is infinite possibilities, not an abusive energy
or negative person or ideology that draws me
That which has been painful with each child
and grandchild , has assured of healing and
protection in this clearing , which as grown
men, can finally be assured voice and choice
in light of truths , that release each of us.
Control is very hard to release , but very
necessary , and I refuse to be seen as controlling
or vindictive , by a former , who prefers to
continue to treat me as his wife , his property .
Gee , where is his power of attorney over
my finances ? Why is that supported legally?
He feels secure in his record of wins ….
Pretty sure a transformation shall correct that,
My gut responds negatively to these times , but
I hunkered down, and treating myself well,
limiting news , phone contact etc ..
I’m so ready ..I know each son is as well..
Blessings & Peace ,
* she has some great mantras on her website .