Tag: Motherhood

Reclaiming the Sovereignty of Motherhood

Clearly , I was a married , single mother , who was disposable.

Shame on anyone in such a distortion, negating the bond of mother and child to infinity to hide truths worthy of exposure and healing ; be it force or choice .

“Maintaining sovereignty as a mother seems to be an impossible task for many women in capitalist patriarchal societies. I saw a quote on Facebook recently from Mamá Kaur that said, “It’s not motherhood that’s exhausting. What’s exhausting is to nurture in a world that doesn’t care for and support its mothers.” That rang true for me.

When I was a single mother especially, the last thing I felt was sovereign. As I wrote in Single Mothers Speak on Patriarchy, “It’s hard to feel like a Goddess when you’re worried sick about how you are going to feed your kids. You can do all the affirmations and self-help work you want, but it is a rare woman who feels empowered living in poverty.”

https://www.magoism.net/2021/12/book-excerpt-8-on-the-wings-of-isis-reclaiming-the-sovereignty-of-auset-ed-by-trista-hendren-et-al/

2:5 Full Time Jobs Normal for Mom , low no pay

As a stay at home Mom I had vision for my life , when each son was in school . My own business had great appeal and I had varied interest to consider .

Of course having a purpose in his life, meant doing what he wanted , which was a lot of being away from home and spending lots of money 💰if and when he chose .

It was important for him to align with the appearance of success and harmony.

I don’t feel that at any point in 21 years of being in the same home, when he was at home .. he wasn’t present ..

He is deeply defensive , and concerned for his happiness .

Never seeing the whole , bonded and dedicated to a partnership , ongoing , that sucks the positive energy from a relationship .

Never considering my needs , my need for action , and support I can assure you emotions never factored into an equation of self preservation on high .

So of course I never did enough .

My body responded to the distorted home life , the projected blame in silence.

Of course I was a monster Mom and must have earned that designation as an induced mental patient who was aware of treachery within the family , the abusive side effects on our children and the trauma.

21 years of his WAR , taking as many prisoners as possible and holding his position though its clear, his truth is neigh , force or choice .

Ignoring my effort to inform him of factual results , none more vital than allowing truth to heal wounds in each child , the multifaceted irregular and illegal truths are forced into light by a crisis .

I asked for 13k to take a course in integrated nutrition in 2005. Of course he said no, he had other priorities and overinflated income that was always spending more than coming in .

Failing to see the results of my ability to produce income and or hoping to keep me down on the economic scale is a reality .

That shows up in the divorce contract , signed when I was medicated into Bipolar ll , secreting the mental , physical , spiritual and financial abuse in a distortion that made me responsible for everything .

Medical and Legal were my responsibility .

The Virginia Supreme Court heard my case on that word responsible , and I lost .

Instead of asking for cost of living increases , the presentation was asking for an increase to cover medical insurance.

Insurance in 2005 was $300ish and Co pays which were going up.

Anthem Blue Cross took 3k from me , to being health insurance at 1k permonth. My 1st bill 2 weeks later was 3k and I decided to release AMA and medical insurance .

Anthem Blue Cross did not receive a claim from me , NOR did they refund my money .

The side effects of malignancy in a marriage are many including surviving the intended death , that a human being prefers in order to escape facts that allow healing for 4 adults and 6 grandchildren.

I have assured him of a conclusion of unfinished, unclarified business , extortion and leverage of children who deserve release and responsibility; who lost their Mom , were deprived of a safe foundation , taught to fear and hate Mom , for the WIN 🏆.

Current situations highlight this discord and distortion and I’m assured of closure and healing time to further my intentions in regard to a career. Vision and dreams of childhood have a part in my future, as well as intentions and dreams of my work , my spiritual and my physical will be in harmony .

The unfinished, the continued secrets , lies and intentions to divest me of any of progress as he’s benefited with each and every obstacle and has never felt obligated to assist , even after an agreement signed 4 years ago .

Motherhood , was destroyed in varied acts and lack of respect and support by a partner who remained BOSS man , lacking knowledge or a desire to be part of a whole , has no idea of partnership or a partners worth .

Only what a person offers , produces , negating the spirit and soul needs .

I have accepted my value , and with each example of abuse and delay in my Grand Design , I release more any attachment to anyone who continues to accept a version of me that does not exist and dishonors my essence .

I am worthy to create a new life freed of the responsibility of abuses and negatives that created Mom as past , and never to discuss past , or honor it.

https://www.baby-chick.com/study-says-motherhood-is-equivalent-to-working-2-5-full-time-jobs/