2:5 Full Time Jobs Normal for Mom , low no pay

As a stay at home Mom I had vision for my life , when each son was in school . My own business had great appeal and I had varied interest to consider .

Of course having a purpose in his life, meant doing what he wanted , which was a lot of being away from home and spending lots of money 💰if and when he chose .

It was important for him to align with the appearance of success and harmony.

I don’t feel that at any point in 21 years of being in the same home, when he was at home .. he wasn’t present ..

He is deeply defensive , and concerned for his happiness .

Never seeing the whole , bonded and dedicated to a partnership , ongoing , that sucks the positive energy from a relationship .

Never considering my needs , my need for action , and support I can assure you emotions never factored into an equation of self preservation on high .

So of course I never did enough .

My body responded to the distorted home life , the projected blame in silence.

Of course I was a monster Mom and must have earned that designation as an induced mental patient who was aware of treachery within the family , the abusive side effects on our children and the trauma.

21 years of his WAR , taking as many prisoners as possible and holding his position though its clear, his truth is neigh , force or choice .

Ignoring my effort to inform him of factual results , none more vital than allowing truth to heal wounds in each child , the multifaceted irregular and illegal truths are forced into light by a crisis .

I asked for 13k to take a course in integrated nutrition in 2005. Of course he said no, he had other priorities and overinflated income that was always spending more than coming in .

Failing to see the results of my ability to produce income and or hoping to keep me down on the economic scale is a reality .

That shows up in the divorce contract , signed when I was medicated into Bipolar ll , secreting the mental , physical , spiritual and financial abuse in a distortion that made me responsible for everything .

Medical and Legal were my responsibility .

The Virginia Supreme Court heard my case on that word responsible , and I lost .

Instead of asking for cost of living increases , the presentation was asking for an increase to cover medical insurance.

Insurance in 2005 was $300ish and Co pays which were going up.

Anthem Blue Cross took 3k from me , to being health insurance at 1k permonth. My 1st bill 2 weeks later was 3k and I decided to release AMA and medical insurance .

Anthem Blue Cross did not receive a claim from me , NOR did they refund my money .

The side effects of malignancy in a marriage are many including surviving the intended death , that a human being prefers in order to escape facts that allow healing for 4 adults and 6 grandchildren.

I have assured him of a conclusion of unfinished, unclarified business , extortion and leverage of children who deserve release and responsibility; who lost their Mom , were deprived of a safe foundation , taught to fear and hate Mom , for the WIN 🏆.

Current situations highlight this discord and distortion and I’m assured of closure and healing time to further my intentions in regard to a career. Vision and dreams of childhood have a part in my future, as well as intentions and dreams of my work , my spiritual and my physical will be in harmony .

The unfinished, the continued secrets , lies and intentions to divest me of any of progress as he’s benefited with each and every obstacle and has never felt obligated to assist , even after an agreement signed 4 years ago .

Motherhood , was destroyed in varied acts and lack of respect and support by a partner who remained BOSS man , lacking knowledge or a desire to be part of a whole , has no idea of partnership or a partners worth .

Only what a person offers , produces , negating the spirit and soul needs .

I have accepted my value , and with each example of abuse and delay in my Grand Design , I release more any attachment to anyone who continues to accept a version of me that does not exist and dishonors my essence .

I am worthy to create a new life freed of the responsibility of abuses and negatives that created Mom as past , and never to discuss past , or honor it.


Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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