80s , my experience

Including the song 80s ladies , which is ancient , none the

less, opened some flood gates , as downloads of memories

were viewed like a film reel…

I wasn’t a girl of the 50s , I was born in 1952 . I was a child

and highly imaginative , and creative , and self soothing ..

Or demanding lol… or I just left the area of down, or negative

energy , to read, hang out , be in nature ..I walked a lot …

But socially , emotionally I was behind , shyness or rejection

of a person, place or thing , while a reaction to negative energy

or a physical reason, found me difficult …I was ordained caregiver

for necessity, and since I was great at self soothing , and had

“Mothered” a brother 14 months younger , loved kids and play

and food etc I became everybody’s Mom . I was knowledgeable

with roommate at 18 who could not pop , pop corn .

With the 2 quick marriage fails , feeling liberated from the over

bonded mate , I married convinced he was liberated, mature

savvy and he was my friend ..

Enlightened very early on, my focus on being my best , doing

my best , wearing the mask, as he did , loving each moment

of mothering , the light of children , becoming a true physical

struggle , as marriage never reached authentic stability ..

I did the best I could , my body signaled over and over ,

medicine failed , finally prescribing addictive RX , that took

me down …

Lacking the tools or support , I lost the 90s to induced addiction.

He lost his maid, surrogate , prematurely perhaps .. I’m sure he

would have exposed himself , I hope that I would have awakened

enough move through it .. but fate intervened …

Gratitude for so much of my path so far , clearing , clearing and creating

while life around me , tugs at me , exampling aspects of my journey

that delayed me , kept me stuck , as exampled by so many ..

Fear cannot and will not guide me , as resting and self care are essential.

Finally trusting my inner guidance , our golden age , arriving in Aquarius

is lending to many dreams becoming reality …

I know and trust my heart . Beloved must trust their heart ..

The Best is yet to be …

Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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