A very effect weapon, utilized 90%
of the time .. I am allowed only to
know , what serves ..I allow this
as it says so much about the with
Silence is judgement , a critical
with holding ; a detachment that
has an effect on me , due to Mom
her Mom, and former had it down
to an art .
Mentoring , Demanding , the same
from our sons , their families else
they loose favor , wills will reflect
as well as actions or non actions
that convey how unworthy I am of
his time or attention unless it benefits
him. So sudden communication , such
as last year’s contract signing , was irregular
beginning with , I have unblocked you
as if his partner was the blame for his
blocking, non communication .
How sad .
Silence , is a void that’s no longer acceptable
no longer tolerable , and will fade away connections
who do not initiate , or balance communication
with out justification ..
It deters , balance, and trust , and I find it
telling of internal dialog .
I have been graced by hearing that a need to
not overload , as the inability to receive
which was a gift .
I realize how zoned out he was , deep in his
own ever present misery ..
Projecting, blaming , ghosting , the MeMeMe
that has no US , was non partnership
that’s certainly been exhibited , abused
and ignored .
Self talk , was transmuted , with surrender
to who , what , when and where .. took a
lot of loads off my back that were not mine .
That’s liberation ..
Transforming this is a pleasure
Blessing & Peace ,