Upon waking from my chemically induced “slumber” I was ever more aware , super aware of who wasn’t being responsible. A very harsh lesson for me and having been a Mom of 3 , my elimination being supported or ignored blew my mind .
The latest experience in my ongoing efforts to conclude old business and indeed clear up distortions that I was made responsible for .
That makes for fear and anger and discord as no one feels any bond via blood , or need to allow clarity within a situation that has cost our family and many others .
I have had no efforts at cooperation , at ending the WAR that is individual and of liberating me from the past of death . I have no reason to rejoice , I feel no WIN and I’m keenly aware that the professionals involved are lacking in education , lacking in character or retaliatory. Retaliation is something I have been targeted with by ex and landlords who enjoy my vulnerability and their power while behaving irresponsibility and with abusive intent .
I feel I made myself clear about my intentions and delayed by many moves and economic constraints as a result of frauds that hit a peak November 23 2021. As with past legal history/experiences I was horrified by the lack of responsibility by the office who could have shut this fraudulent masked man who intended to take my income in business .
Further research indicated his strong alliance with a religion who appoints members to participate in many abusive practices.
Definitely a show and light experience which may have a few more tower moments but this definitely will bring clarity to responsible business practices and hopefully 🙏 the desire to be authentic in all we do in more compassionate release of decades of distortions and abuses .
So as I try to live my life , regain my health and physical strength I accept more support and love than I have ever known in real time and spiritually . Peace is in my passionate heart which is wearing an earth suit that is weary but happy !
I have not looked outside myself for love ❤️ long enough to know the continued rejection by our sons indicates my need to allow their journey to affect me as they are someone else’s prayer.
Without climbing into the toxins well and digressing during Dec Jan Feb and March with very low funds , I allowed gratitude that I had new tires and battery and money for gas so I could sit in my car as long as my body allowed to have internet after having mine shut off Dec 14, 2021.
I did not give in to the memories of Christmas past , good , bad or horrific or dwell on the non birthday celebration in Feb .
I did realize that the end of holding space for healing other than myself was detrimental to my health and well-being and I would never be in a position to know in this extreme place , I had no offerings of even a MerryChristmas from family .
No illusions there and while it’s painful this has presented over and over again with the Divinely Blessed opening to correct and heal distortions of consciousness and normality .
Change is upon us , by force or by choice . Shadow is being exposed to light and New Earth will be a return to love and peace as it exist in the hearts and minds of enough people to make it happen. The foundation long achieved by our ancestors and elders , we are well on our way ; more are waking surpassing the 11% required to create this shift / change !!! WeGotThis!!
I have experienced challenged in my life and none deeper or more painful that the abuses that took me away from myself and my very essence of being a Mom which has more value to me that my being responsible for an adult male in WAR with himself and ignoring and refusing to do so .
Dust to Dust Ashes to Ashes is the place for these abuses , given light and honored for their many teachings ; for its PAST time to authentically know security, home , peace and joy every day instead of the combative discord that wishes to destroy me , passing me off as the enemy.