Wow , did this hit home! I come into a lot of folks who grew up as I did
being in charge and not knowing how. By age 18, I was very tired of having
near full charge of siblings , due to Mom’s working 11pm to 7am ..Alone
in the house with younger kids.. I tried to stay away from home at an early
age , but for years , younger brother tagging along . Some highly aggressive
occurrences red flagged his behavior, but I did not have a lot of reference
but it grew and grew , and finally it reached a point of no return .
Expected to be the responsible one in marriage , left little time for nurture.
After my Xanax breakdown, I felt very vulnerable , and at risk, with
concerns about stability as quickly as possible and mother our sons .
That necessitated trying to normalize and try to stabilize our foundation
thus pleasing X was very necessary .
I did not feel strong enough to go on with out him, feared him and his
retaliations. This developed into Parentification of our eldest , who
Deserved his childhood . Each of our sons deserved better .
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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited
I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse.
As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my
desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven.
I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are
denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child.
I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power..
I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination..
Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative".
It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..
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