Wrong Life ?


You did not live the wrong life, friend.

You made choices, yes, the best choices you could have made at the time, the only choices that were possible for you, choiceless choices that led you willingly or unwillingly to the place where you are now.

Perhaps there was never any choice anyway.

You said yes, you said no, you said no when you meant yes and yes when you meant no.
But these were the only answers you could have given at the time, considering what you knew, where you were, what you needed; considering your genetics and the trauma you had not yet healed, the insights you had not yet had, the path you had not yet trodden on your way to your deepest self.

You did not live the wrong life.

You can look back and say you lived the wrong life.
But these are only thoughts
and you did not live the wrong life.

For you are here. Your breath is rising and falling, right on cue.
The sun is rising in the sky and the leaves are falling from the trees.
Your mind is full of the thoughts that must be thought now.
Your body holds the feelings that you must feel now.
Sounds you must hear, longings you must turn towards.
Regrets you must illuminate, fears you must smile at.
Or not.

And every choice, every missed opportunity, every right path that turned out to be the wrong path, every bridge burned or connection made, every loss and every gain, every moment of doubt, inaction, courage, joy, every depression and every moment of unbridled ecstasy, led you right here.

Here. Now. A new beginning.
A new chance to live. To love.
To make amends, or not.
To laugh or cry at the world and your place in it.

To fall to your knees in awe and humility.

The cosmos does not make mistakes,
even when it does.

You did not live the wrong life, friend,
because life did not live
the wrong You.

  • Jeff Foster

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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