Place Holder

I realized many times that I was a ” place holder ” and there aways was a 3rd party ; maybe more involved in his life .

Not able to act in truth , waiting for the right time and for the twin he found and together they destroyed each other in their zest to target me .

They traveled, lived large , exotic cars and the same dynamics destroyed that relationship , as they fed our sons on everything being my fault .

That was financial; ” oh I’d love to help you out but ” she”gets half my money and spousal .”

All the while I was short sheeted and legally he thought he had things secure .

Years of not caring for himself , not knowing how or caring , his behavior towards me was even less care .

Place holding had a short life and when he was done he was done and wanted to leave with as much as possible .

Always has a reserve , sexual partners and money to pay for services .

I’m very Thankful to be out of the energy of place holding and marriage to a man who was never ever satisfied .


Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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