Dad was 22, Mom 21 , when I came to be .
He was larger than life , and empathetic
and harsh when he was in fear ..His tender
understanding of his obligation to step in as
Mom, experienced PTSD hell with my birth
drugged by Twilight Sleep , precluding
attachment , a nursing failure that took me to the brink of death .
I mourn Dad , physically , his voice and the end of exchanges that aided both of us in clearing out old stuff , much the last 6 months of his life , as he was drugged to death ..
End stage , elder care is a cause near and dear and one I keep my eye on, and will stand for intensely when my family liberation is more pronounced .
The life lessons Dad taught me were not always pleasant, but a reality check for this water sign ..
As his exit allowed time , he took my hands , from his hospital bed as asked with a very serious face , he asked “ what are you going to do when I’m not here .”
I smiled and touched my heart and my head
as I said “ you are always & forever here “ just your physical is leaving , our souls are forever “
He went down when Mom passed in 99 just after the 50th Anniversary , due to my “chemical straight jacket “ I was disabled to aid him or Mom , in my Hell on Earth waking to healing much , before he exited
with lots of force from dark shadow .
Despite that he was transformed and guided by his angels as i watched and never more proud and in awe of James Abner Wheeler , My only Dad this life ,
and none other has come close to filling the Dad shoes .. I have never considered marriage to compensate .
Cannot replace ❤️ connection that soul
Forever & Always Grateful for my Dad who with me 💯👁. There is no end 🌞