My Dad , James Abner Wheeler , Mother Joyce and Me 1952

Dad was 22, Mom 21 , when I came to be .
He was larger than life , and empathetic 
and harsh when he was in fear ..His tender
understanding of his obligation to step in as 
Mom, experienced PTSD hell with my birth 
drugged by Twilight Sleep , precluding 
attachment , a nursing failure that took me to the brink of death .
I mourn Dad , physically , his voice and the end of exchanges that aided both of us in clearing out old stuff , much the last 6 months of his life , as he was drugged to death ..
End stage , elder care is a cause near and dear and one I keep my eye on, and will stand for intensely when my family liberation is more pronounced . 
The life lessons Dad taught me were not always pleasant, but a reality check for this water sign ..
As his exit allowed time , he took my hands , from his hospital bed  as asked with a very serious face , he asked “ what are you going to do when I’m not here .”
I smiled and touched my heart and my head 
as I said “ you are always & forever here “ just your physical is leaving , our souls are forever “ 
He went down when Mom passed in 99 just after the 50th Anniversary , due to my “chemical straight jacket “ I was disabled to aid him or Mom , in my Hell on Earth waking to healing much , before he exited 
with lots of force from dark shadow .
Despite that he was transformed and guided  by his angels as i watched  and never more proud and in awe of James Abner Wheeler , My only  Dad this life ,  
and none other has come close to filling the Dad shoes .. I have never considered marriage to compensate . 
Cannot replace ❤️ connection that soul 
based .
Forever & Always Grateful for my Dad who with me 💯👁. There is no end 🌞
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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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