The eldest , long dark hair never knew her bio Dad . She was a very young child when uncle began his sex implantation /abuse which continued thru her adult life , regardless of status .
It is my belief that each of us were affected by her experience or initiation.
No boundaries as far a partners which has been a theme for siblings .
I did not buy into it and avoided all engagement in entaglents even as a child , to be corrupted by the sexual trauma bonds .
I had many close calls .
I had no memory of my own oral rape and effort to initiate me into this shadow .
For this , knowledge and my truths , I hold in a place of distortion , or witchery in their minds and hearts to blasphemy me for not accepting sex as a weapon or tool or addiction .
It was this that fed , my past experience within the distorted masculine I married and had 3 sons with .
Not only sexually fed , taking of my property , allowing my financial support …a sister stated that she was going to help me IF I did as told….
Dad had seen the same energy as I experienced and it adversely affected Mom and Dad’s marriage .
Mom ignored a lot and allowed infighting, power plays etc
It shows , up in adults .
Nothing was acknowledged by Mom for her brother’s rape of 2 of her daughters .
It seems all 5 children were sexually molested outside of our home and carried on the abuse within and without our home without my knowledge or comprehension until 2005ish
Taking charge of Dads estate after his years of widowed existence , was a power play for brothers who Stockholmed Dad as he mentally declined .
The estate suffered from their devilish deeds , I was given a 1/3 of what I should have received.
I’m quite sure Dad would not have set a will up that had 2 brothers deciding how to carry out his wishes .
Dad had Dementia and after his accident without oxygen , with COPD , he developed Hypoxia, the brain cells died .
He had end stage COPD
He had end stage heart disease .
I did not know, nor was I told any of this .
In caring for him , I had no support and lost in my effort to keep him safe and at peace in his own home to die .
Mom died at home due to a very high profile nursing home neglecting her urgent care needs .
Dad brought her home and she passed within days .
I have not had funds to take this matter before court.
Just as ex has controlled my income , for nefarious , self provoked greed , covering up their misdeeds, family caste me out , after he did totally and demure I am the witch , but they love me !
Eldest passed horribly , never healing trauma or seeking absolution or forgiveness.
She seldom crosses my mind , sadly , her behaviors had many shadow effects on me and I understand and released her long ago . No attempts were made on her part , after I responded to her effort to have me disconnect from Dad and share my inheritance in 2004.
A lot of devil energy exist in siblings , I totally separated from after buried Dad in Jan of 2013.
She passed within months .
Family Fail strengthened my resolve to know and do better .
Remaining sister offers help as with my eviction , then spirals into shadow that has allowed me harm , so after 2020 , I am in no contact.
My failure was in ignoring Intuitive messages and signs , falling for the mask that devil/shadow energy and trauma unhealed that is not my place nor desire to heal for anyone beyond my facts and truths offering .
Blessings & Peace