Upon waking I thought I was middle class and as I lost my health insurance ( Cobra Serve ) with a $1000 house payment and lots of repairs needed , the insurance cost $1000 for a policy without dental nor vision .
I found ” middle class ” grossly under supported and as I became a ” senior ” even less so .
And I saw it coming over 12 years ago and moved to rural where I had to rent until old business was corrected . The constant insanities of being a tenet and out of pocket medical cost as I was subjected to abused physically and emotionally delayed me but I sense a house is forthcoming .
Keeping the faith , sadly someone defaulting on a mortgage may be my clearing on buying a home and securing a foundation , less stressful and more stabilizing as I return to gardening etc when in lay my peace .
That challenges the past who considers the happy home for me as a magnet for attracting a partner .
I don’t sense that happening in the near future ; but it does show the distorted thinking of the past who doesn’t feel I deserve comforts and peace / happiness and has contributed to my challenges for decades that ends NOW
I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse.
As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my
desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven.
I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are
denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child.
I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power..
I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination..
Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative".
It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..
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