Self Love

When you give too much in every relationship, people get used to that side of you. So when you finally start to love yourself and value yourself, people start complaining that you have changed. All they care about is that now you expect more in return for the efforts you put in. They miss the selfless you, the idiot you. So now they find you arrogant, rude, selfish, and evil. But I don’t care what people think about me. I know how much I have suffered for being that stupid fool. I can still feel those tears in my heart. And it was hell for me. You see me as this new person, this confident, bold, and savage human. But it has taken me a lot to build myself up to this. It does not come naturally to me. I had a very soft heart. I used to get fooled so easily. I felt too much. It was just a desperate effort by me to change myself. So please understand. This is not a phase. This is not a mood swing. This is not about you. It’s about how I had to become this person to live more. And I am bloody proud of myself for what I have become. I can’t be played like a toy anymore. And for me, that’s everything.

But you are free to judge me for all you want. You can label me whatever suits you best. I won’t debate that. I won’t argue. I won’t fight. That’s exactly what I have moved on from. I don’t fight these silly battles of egos. I am just walking at my own sweet pace in my own chill way. You are free to join me. You are free to leave me. You can be my company. But you can’t change my journey or destination. I am in that happy space. I am in that self-sufficient mental space. I honestly don’t need people to make me feel important or special. I do that for myself, daily. I don’t need you to tell me how amazing I am. I tell myself that, daily. You don’t need to shower me with gifts. I treat myself with something, daily. Yes. I am that deeply in love with every inch of my soul. And no matter how much you try for a breakup, this relationship will last forever. I was just too lost in people earlier. Now, I have found my soulmate. It’s me. It was always me. And it will always be me.

~ Rahul Kaushik 😊

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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