Trusting /Loving Self

Trusting the Universe was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn. Trusting in the unknown. Trusting humanity and trusting myself.

Trusting the universe is trusting in the unknown. We are so programmed to control our lives and every aspect of it. Many times I have been asked by my spiritual team, “Don’t you trust us?” When I really questioned the validity of their presence in my life. I let go of the control and accepted their influence to witness miracle after miracle. Because of these miracles, I trust the universe explicitly.

Trusting others… I have a very dear friend that I can talk 100% all things Universe with. He asked me about trusting myself. I said I trust myself but I do not trust others. He said poignantly, if you don’t trust others then you do not trust yourself, for we are ALL One. I had to sit with that in deep reflection to understand it for myself. Trusting in others is a healing energy and lesson I have had to master, it’s a work in progress to unfurl the pain and heal the parts of me that do not trust others.

Trusting myself. This one is huge. I have had to set personal boundaries for myself and really see the human in the mirror. I haven’t liked or loved myself pretty much most of my life. It has taken extreme loss, grief, to and a half years of crying to let go of the programmed person I was to accept this beautiful new version. Mastering self love has been monumental on this healing journey. I no longer see a just a body, I see an embodied soul full of gratitude and love.

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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