Me

Nothing has been more scary , more hellish that accepting the truth of the lies ,, secrets , threats , betrays , abuses and death intentions of a highly distorted white male , who is supported financially and his desire to have me cease to exist.

I was vulnerable and the mirror too often for his projections I absorbed and internalized , but began to mirror , and I’m sure that was not pleasant for him, but it’s taken me time to not react with my face .

I always have shown emotions on my face , my Dad had pet names for my expressions , he liked to tease me for years ..I lived on never sand feelings with a weak and lazy mind that was deep, very deep. And life has produced a lot of “ me time “ , though it was quite a while before I looked in my closets , lol. And that mother load of self revelations , instincts , screaming , came in the chemical haze of psychiatry and their “ poison “ had become beyond deniable , however I discovered few people, professionals included , who knew I was in a high stated to trauma and drug addiction legally by our AMA and Big Pharma, therapist, the legal system, the religious and social institutions.

So glad to be leaving that behind , on my own which is normal , and every day releasing . That said there are a few energies I’m having trouble blocking , but I’m working on it . I am aware of my protection and the closure that the Universe has panned , with “side effects “ to those who have done me great harm.. it’s not in my control.

Still searching for a home, they are over priced and sell quickly or need a lot of work, but one has my name on it .

I went out twice this past week, and I’m not doing too much to prepare myself , and was pleased to talk with a new person, who said I looked 20 years younger that my chronological age ! I’ve heard that a lot , it’s cool but I’m not egocentric… I met a new gal, very interesting who said she loved my hair ! That meant a lot , after looking so much hair in January … I use good generic hair regrowth products , and genes lol.

☝️ Please note my vision is very fuzzy , and there more be more grammar errors than my normal. Lol I have an appointment in October to prepare for cataract surgery 😊

The recent past tested me yesterday , when I arrived at my restaurant, and was met at the door with information of the presence of the LLC crook, being in there , and I was very Thankful for the advance and there wasn’t a moment of unease on my part . I noted he had gained a good deal of weight , and went on to enjoy my evening

All is well with my soul and I pray for you that this is so.

Blessings & Peace ☮️

Dona Luna