When Narcissist’s Collide – Part Two
Formers “happy” twin, of almost 20 years ( perhaps longer ) was energetically his match ; his equal . She escaped early this year , of her own violation , worn and sickened by the years of so many evil acts .. I was at his home , for business purposes this spring and she called and immediately began to shriek and scream …
While he had begun to show signs of the physical abuse he’s self indulged in , all his life , and a 40 year plus, denial of his cumulative trauma, triggers, temper towards a lot of feminine and masculine energy , fear , anger and denial have been focused on me. Disposing of me was his solution, one elitist , secret societies blueprints.
Psychiatry created the ” unfit” Mother, ignoring Domestic Abuse, as I was legally medicated into what is termed Bipolar. Much like my ” induced ” pregnancies Bipolar was induced by medications that created mania, dank dark depression and too often Trauma..Ignored was an unknown , never expressed addiction and induced breakdown by Xanax ..ignored were my words,
My husband hit me..
I was made responsible for all the negatives as our children experienced trauma after trauma and my compliance to my abuser , their Dad , following 17 hell on earth days in a psychiatric ward ..
It’s been supported that I alone was responsible for financial , moral, religious , and failure as a Mother, wife by Virginia law , by AMA medicine , and by those who care for, love , and side with a man who lost his way long ago .Who has been allowed to utilize our children in an effort to retaliate my possession of real estate .
Half owner, no partnership exist there either , in his divorce which is a slam and a deterrent to my belief in Virginia’s slogan Virginia is for lovers❤️
It has been 20 years this year , Dec 27 th 1998 that he walked away..Medicated beyond beyond, sick at a soul level, my Mom in her 5th year combating heart disease, triggered by the recreation of a Christmas in my 12 year when my parents split …I realized how little god influenced the father of our 3 sons. For 5 intense years as I existed in a chemical straightjacket , I watched our family erode. The actual words ,and inference was that I decided taking medications that induced horrific reactions that were normalized by licensed , still practicing psychiatrist , because I did not want to mother or be a wife..Socially shamed , each married, set boundaries that blocked truths that many now speak in denouncement of the discrimination and abuses by professions and elitist families that insures children are trophies used to avenge a partner who knows their darkest shadow..
So I do celebrate , the end of a cycle that began with a man , his recent purchase of a home , for which he needed a maid with benefits .. His closest friends were couples and at 27 he just wanted a steady , a friend .
Not knowing how to love deeply , trauma unspoken bonded with a Mom who will protect her name and his, clearing every experience that might have taught him ,evolved him , in a love that finds no one can be or do for him as she does..retarding deeply rewarding relationships , which angers him more .. Seeing something in me, lighter in spirit , forgiving , connected when not directed at him 24/7 left him feeling abandoned and angry , plus I should work , not have babies , and Mother his sons. It’s still alive in him , and his denial is his …
God has been good to me in so many ways, especially in the facts , the studies , the too many affected families , ignored by corporate for profit and power…releasing this in the most magical Christmas season, fraught with threats all around us.. I am knowing in every cell that many wrongs are being corrected , and that will speed up , as 50 years of stuck information downloads in folks who are receiving God in a masterful manner , who embody the light of Christ , whom was balanced and spiritual , and did not discriminate.. Joseph and Mary were equals as he considered her so, and so Jesus was balanced in masculine and feminine ..
Old souls like myself , are but the first wave of such love and light , seeing in our grandchildren a world that does not have to repeat 14 generations of family trauma, abuse etc .
Indeed it is a return to love ..
In celebration and Thank You’s that are infinite, I humbly allow the light on places that deserve healing and liberate my family , and your family , for there are many ways to empower yourself and better understand that in knowing better , we do better , as a collective society we rise ..I was drawn to that , by moving to my mountain , which continues to challenge my foundation ( living space ) but not my faith …
Many Blessings & Much Peace,