This little light of mine

Of course this song was sang Sundays at church , a sweet Southern

Baptist, where Mom’s family belonged . I loved it , as far back as I

recall , and yes there was an out house . Scary , my grandparents

had one too, and I had a great fear of them.

I was vocal as I recall, Mom was quiet, a moody person , so I

steered clear of her , and played alone , or explored the neighborhood.

I’m not sure who got things going , but we put on talent shows

and danced and played my half sister’s music which I don’t care for .

My light did shine 🌞, and I’m not sure what stopped it , but I

experienced fears and unknowing that presented as shy , stuttering

and preference to my elders and with the babies and toddlers .

Competitive friends , or goals , and family members were draining

and yes Mom felt competitive at times …

Our sons enhanced light in me and around me , as I had to note , my

light was unwelcome, rejected , and drained .

The complex journey towards the light , has taught me well. Indeed I have

grown up .

It’s not a matter of allowing my light, it just is. I stay in when I’m weary or

guard my energies.and I’m ok with that.

I have come to realize that light can bring out the Demons in others

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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