Sleep

My last psychiatrist, was a female , who told me to nap for 15 minutes.

I laughed and said it takes me 15 minutes to get comfortable ..

Her training had left her with this concept .

The 1st time I fell asleep unassisted was a miracle , and I was stunned

to check the clock , realizing I had only slept for minutes not hours .

And dreaming ..

I realized I had not had REM sleep , and with a friend’s help, I had that

actuality happen. He gave me a 25 mg Trazodone, and OMG , I

I dreamed in color !, I was so excited . I them used Sam-E which is over

the counter , until I weaned off ALL meds .

I did not have a TV in my room, and tried my best to develop better

sleep habits , and succeeded though my house was positioned at

the top of a hill, that had a lot of traffic and the revving of motors

and tire burnouts was normal, increasing on weekends .

The neighbors had a huge older lab that was on their deck all

day while they worked . Poor baby barked loudly which echoes

at everything , and nights while they were out ..

I was soooo glad to leave that house .

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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