I’m finally 57 I always knew I would be 57 when my son turned 18. I never expected to go through 16 years of high conflict custody dispute. I never expected to have my stress turned against me to have teachers turned against me to have my hairstylist testify against me to tell the court that I was ‘late to my appointments to get my hair done’ as if that mattered, I have been through every possible kind of torture in a custody fight. I was sued by a Jewish attorney and a Jewish father to take away the Jewish holidays. Who does that? Eventually, my therapist told me I had the worst divorce she’s ever seen in 40 years and she was on a call list by the state bar and worked with a lot of attorneys so she had seen a lot of stuff. The only way to combat alienation is to heal your own heart first to find some measure of joy that you can call your center of gravity and build outward. Stress is always used against you. Facebook posts are always used against you. We should try to create a hotline to help each other and may be man it or woman it once a week. Even zooms can be recorded so you we’d need a nondisclosure agreement just so that we can talk to each other without taking a risk that somehow were being stalked, because I was stalked online by my exes attorney. They paid money to look at everything I ever posted online and they used everything they could against me, but it’s finally over. My daughter no longer speaks to me. It’s been five years and my son has said that he’s never coming to visit me ever again which I believe is true so I have to rebuild my life now it’s taken 16 years to get to this point and the only thing I can do is clean my garage get rid of the debris of my life and move forward. It hurts, my son said to throw away the family pictures and all of his toys and clothes and he’s never coming back. I believe him and I packed up his room. We’ll see what happens. “Half A Life” I lost half their childhoods and all the rest of my daughter’s life. Utterly unfair.
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