Narcissist Flaunting Their New Supply

I was extremely ” under the influence of psychiatry, medicated and grief and , physically toxic when he slit 2 days after Christmas .

He flaunted his new sweet gal straight away , even trying to walk over to her at our graduating seniors .

Her child was bragging at high schiot( his last year) and quickly the newbie laid down the law; I could not be at any event she graced.

She dressed them to match , and I was notified at his open displays with her , given our family trauma . And his posting business etc

But he was oproud and maybe still is ; they had a 20 year span and she enjoyed abusing me ; saying my children not grandchildren wanted anything to do with me .

Medically her body responded with a grave disease and she endured a lot of pain , while witnessing his inability to empathize; instead complaining about paying her bills .

The debilitation and energetic drain is very difficult to recover from ; certainly the loss of love and betrayal was very difficult but I totally realized my blessing in surviving and stopped being painful and shameful ; but there is no recovery for loosing our sons/grandchildren , ever . He knows that, they know that and they are not interested as he is to move forward and I cannot go backwards

I’m over the shame and blame and that fall out has been pretty constant , as it feeds the ” monster” … thus I’m 110% retreating from fractures and distortions that have no authentic growth , stability and support mutually beneficial and exclusive .

I’ve respected myself enough to withdraw from the trauma and drama in relationships as I rest in the arms of Divine , and patiently wait for the dust clears towards creating a stable home and deepen my spiritual connection, friendships and continue to reject negative energies who must do their own healing towards their dreams.

Shame and guilt preclude stability , trust and all the foundational principles required to achieve the abundance that awaits in all of life and I’ve past that negative in myself , and I appreciate my teachings that brought me to this place that I’ve longed for and I’m grateful and don’t plan to leave this home within , this love within etc to vibrate lower , just to please a partner .

I’m just responsible for me as I’ve so often been shown .

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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