The message this morning was to let go
and I can assure you that’s been forced
and choice until I again feel “naked” before
Divine who knows my heart .
The source is not out there it’s within me
Which attracts more than it repels .
The need to know as much as possible from
my decades of experiences and research
and then blasphemy me or channel it as
I have only myself which has got me to this
space in between . However , there is clarity
about my responsibilities in closing out
cycles that our grandchildren will not
inherit as the “ sack cloth “ of servitude to
very dark secrets in ancestors is no longer
a legacy .
I did not receive one moment of truth and
sense change , only denial and projection
which I have long accepted as self talk .
My healing included detaching from his
shadow , and keeping faith that our sons
would awaken and recognize the better
healthier choice to heal these trauma . Past
but so triggered , so shamed , so resistant
as they channel their father ; I surrender
them once again to Divine ,
Having had no healthy connection for
over 20! Years and “ No contact “ but for
one I did business with , the dimming of
having had a loving family being a reality .
Just as he masked , they masked , and have
no loving , compassionate, respect for me.
Letting go , presenting my experience , the
total lack of Justice and civil rights and
mostly the effort to repress my spiritual
growth , emotionally abusing my very
heart and soul .
Severed is The Living Connection , that is
destroyed by an individual who must
Letting go of the recent lesson in partnership
a repeat lesson involving children which
was and is hard but it’s done .. surrendered.
Letting go of 6 th month in a motel as
my home becomes a reality .
Despite the effort to keep me low financially
which is less appealing to a suitor , as I
began my single hood , with zero credit
and making it worse by refinance quotes
as I sought healthcare replacements
I tanked around 500.
So I was thrilled to get my paper credit
report to find my score at 630 and lots
I can dispute !
I have much to be grateful for , as I listen to
some happy birds , enjoying the bare trees .
I am surrendered to the changes in my life
that I have prayed for since I was a child
where I choose to hold the childlike wonder
and deflect within or without and childish
repetitive trauma or drama .
Have a Very Blessed Day
Peace ☮️ & Love ❤️
Dona Luna 🐸