Grief

What I didn’t know about grief-

What I didn’t know is that your body goes on “auto-pilot.”
You will get dressed.
You will return to work.
You will do the dishes.

What I didn’t know is that you feel empty.
Like part of your heart is physically missing.
As if you are a hollow shell of who you were before.

What I didn’t know is that it 𝑯𝒖𝒓𝒕𝒔.
Some days, I wondered if I was having a heart attack,
Though I didn’t really care if I was.
The emotional pain turned to physical pain,
But in a way it was comforting.

What I didn’t know is that it changes.
I always heard about the stages of grief.
But I didn’t know it changes, sometimes rapidly.

What I did know is that it becomes your 𝑵𝒆𝒘 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆.
You become someone new.
Hybrid.
Partly who you were,
and partly a new person who has a greater power of understanding and compassion.

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝑫𝑰𝑫 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎.

-Jessica

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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