What I didn’t know is that your body goes on “auto-pilot.” You will get dressed. You will return to work. You will do the dishes.
What I didn’t know is that you feel empty. Like part of your heart is physically missing. As if you are a hollow shell of who you were before.
What I didn’t know is that it 𝑯𝒖𝒓𝒕𝒔. Some days, I wondered if I was having a heart attack, Though I didn’t really care if I was. The emotional pain turned to physical pain, But in a way it was comforting.
What I didn’t know is that it changes. I always heard about the stages of grief. But I didn’t know it changes, sometimes rapidly.
What I did know is that it becomes your 𝑵𝒆𝒘 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. You become someone new. Hybrid. Partly who you were, and partly a new person who has a greater power of understanding and compassion.
I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse.
As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my
desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven.
I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are
denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child.
I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power..
I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination..
Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative".
It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..
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