The Fall

Again, I fall.

To write takes courage, to sort through the dark, dim and sorrowful events attempting to assemble some words to make sense of what has happened. I am but a broken soul cautiously attempting to mend the broken reality that is her world.

As I sit here and write, I wonder: “Do I find these words poetic enough to share with the rest of you? Have I adorned my pain and agony with enough prose and beauty for you to accept it, to read it, even glance at it?”

The truth is, no matter how raw my writing gets, you will never truly feel the crude, gruesome and brutal crushing weight of being stuck in a life you despise, a mind you cannot control, and a body that serves no purpose but holding you down.

What aches the most is the futility of it all. The absurdity of life peaks in our inability to accept it in its crudest and most chaotic form.

To keep things short and simple, I am suffocating and lost my will to breathe.

~A.
~Gail Potocki.

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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